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Yeah. I want nothing of that horror anymore.

I had enough emotionally. But I'm doing my best to know peace from this evil.

My life was on autopilot so I got behind...

I'll try to save it.

I may not enjoy everything in the fandom myself but I do know how to avoid much of it. I can understand why it is hard for you and I think it is best we not focus there specifically.

Wanting to take control of your life... Feeling like you have no control of your life does feel sad and hopeless. Way too many questions I could ask but I will try one at a time. How would distancing yourself from the fandom help you?

Ponies and me. It was a special story.

Now I am working to get rid of the bad stuff so I can enjoy my time here. ^^

I would feel less blood on my hand and weight on my shoulders.

I have low self confidence and having one of the pillars of my life corrupted this much.

It sent me into an endless circle of despair and self hatred. But never again.