Moony the Cat

Whatever i had 3-4 Months ago, got worse again. It seems like my body hates more and more food. And i already try to keep it as simple as possible. The pain down to the right gets worse. Do i really have to get a appendicitis? ( Or however its spelled ) It seems like the entire bigger part of my intestines is hurt and wound. And im running out of food Options...i get more skinny because my body reacts allergic to so much stuff...and i still have to wait for the 18th of january for my meeting with a specialist...or run to a hospital, but what could they do? They would try to research me, but in order to do that, i would have to drink this weird stuff, that is supposed to clean my intestines, which would result in me having the worst pain yet...how am i supposed to hold that out? Why does real life need to be this bad? Why cant they just remove the bigger part of my intestines? According to my research on the web, it would work. Do i really have to get a appendicitis? Please no...it already hurts pretty bad...i would like to die please. Like Seriously, im not even depressed right now, im terrified, scared, im begging! I dont want to live anymore.