Valencia

I'm sorry I haven't been around  this weekend has been particularly hard for me and it's just made me want to sleep all the time, but I just end up lying here doing nothing...

I've felt pretty sick since Friday night- small fever and just achey all over, plus my joints hurt >~< then I had a huge argument with one of my family members.. it wasn't a small one either

It's convinced me that moving out at the end of January or the first of February is the best decision for me- I'm never going to do anything or make anything of myself by staying here, it's hurting me and holding me back 

I don't like being here for now, but I just don't have the means to leave yet, it all makes me just want to crawl in a dark hole and sleep 23 hours a day...

I'm sorry if this is too much to drop on everyone, but I genuinely value and appreciate the bonds I have here with those I've built friendships with, and I just wanted you to know about all the goings on and why I've been inactive

the most genuine version of me I can ever offer to the world, in any facsimile, is who I am and how I act on this site- I truthfully love that I have all of you to share it with, and I feel you've given me the grace through your actions to let that part of me grow

<3