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That's fair enough; best of luck directing your life onto the path you seek, it sounds like you understand what needs to be done, so I'm sure you'll be fine now distractions like this place are out of the way  

I'm glad you're enjoying reading it so far! Having gotten interested in the story in the last month, I can understand the appeal of this all I hope you enjoy the rest of the series; I feel like things get a little cluttered and confusing halfway through the comics, but other than that, it's defintely worthwhile

idk even what game this is, but apparently your character cooks great pizza so CONGRATS!!!!!!! : D If you get him to level 100, let me know and I will gladly turn myself virtual and eat all the virtual pizza he's got :3

Oh, I remember you! Welcome back, even if it's not going to be a very active return! I'm glad you've been keeping well and enjoying/getting reinvested in your interests; what characters do you main in Smash, out of curiosity? The competitive scene for that game always seemed like a lot of fun, it's good that you've been able to join in irrespective of your results. As for your original world, what kind of things happen in it? ^^

Admittedly I'm a little unsure how to give a cohesive reply to this, so I'll try reply to what areas I can... sorry if I misinterpret anything you said, I have a hard time getting the gist of things occasionally ^^;

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I have too much spare time. I guess. Idky I am sad exactly. But sometimes when friends don't reply to my messages it makes me second guess myself. Then I don't want to send more messages in case I just annoy them or something. So then I get stuck on the indecision.

It's reasonable enough to get caught up over stuff like that; online, it's pretty hard to gauge how people you talk to might be feeling, or whether silence indicates they're busy, or disinterested, or not feeling social at the moment, etc. If your friends are good friends though, they should be open and honest if their reasons for not replying are anything personal, for both your sakes... so, if they're not giving any personal reasons, chances are they're just distracted, as anyone can be in this busy world. It may be hard to ignore the doubts in your mind, but allow yourself to send your friends more messages whatever you second guess about yourself; you seem like a very considerate person, I doubt you'd be annoying anyone unless that anyone happens to be easily annoyed to an unhealthy degree

Out of curiosity, do you do anything else you enjoy while waiting for friends to reply? Or does your enjoyment depend heavily on how frequently they reply?

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I am afraid to be more social, and to be myself irl. I'm stuck inside all day. And sometimes idk if it sjust what I prefer doing, or when its over-done. I am fine being alone, but doesn't mean I am all I want to be, even the parts I am capable of if I were braver.

Hmm... while even the most introverted people probably still crave company at times (I know I do at least), from the sound of it, I doubt the level of social activity you're getting is just what you prefer. You state you're afraid to be yourself irl; what parts of yourself do you feel like you're hiding away? Since you mentioned being a closet brony later in the entry, I'm going to guess that at the very least might be a big thing; if so, this thread might be worth a look if you feel your bronyism is something you'll ever need to share.

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What am I supposed to do? There is nothing. How will I know if life is worth it, when I do more good than bad, how will I know that happens? I won't, objectively speaking, because I don't see the full consequences to my actions, then the stuff that matters I am incapable of changing.

In regards to doing more good than bad, I can't say for 100% sure seeing as I don't know you, but if being a good person is something you're concerned about, I'm willing to bet you're already doing a ton more good than bad; for as easy as being bad can be, even just the smallest of good acts can ripple out quite a ways Being unable to see the full consequences of your actions may make it difficult to see that, of course, but it doesn't mean the effects of your actions die out within sight; something I like to do is try consider how big a difference a small thing like someone wishing good morning to everyone they meet could make, perhaps inspecting the good you do as such might help clarify to yourself the real potential extent of it.

As for the stuff that matters which you can't change, what kinds of things would these be?

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I never complete any of my goals, and they don't really matter in the first place.

What kind of goals do you have, may I ask?

I can understand your nervousness about finding the middle grounds here; while I'm never experienced it as strongly as you did, I know things can get stressful when there's too much to keep up with. Forums are supposed to be a fun place of respite, so having many obligations forcing you to be busy on them is demoralizing to say the least. I guess if you end up having too many messages on here/messages take up too much time again, one idea could be to set aside a certain period of time where you reply to messages if you want; every other time of day, you only deal with conversations if you're in the mood for them or they're important. The people you're talking to will understand and respect this, I'm sure, and no pressure if you don't address every conversation in a day

Hope you find a way that works for you, for all the happiness you've spread on these forums, you really deserve to feel comfortable and get to enjoy yourself

While we never really interacted too much, it really feels a shame to see you go... you've always come across as an incredibly friendly person, and your activity in and devotion to the Ask a Pony section was always lovely to see (pretty sure you were one of the main reasons why I frequented it so much in the past; truly it's a section that deserves lots more attention). Even in your final blog you try share as much positivity as you can and depart with a smile, not everyone is so amiable Best of luck wherever you head now, I hope you never forget or undermine the difference you have made for many of us

Do you have any means with which to deal with your lawn?

As for your parents, looking into your earlier blogs it seems like they weren't exactly all that supportive in the first place, and certainly their love and respect not all that worthwhile... things will be harder now without them helping out, but at the same time, there is a silver lining here; presumably they won't be bothering or harassing you any more, so that will be some stress off your back. Ultimately things could only really have changed for the better if either they cleaned up their act and became friendlier or they leave you be, and while the former would have been nicer, the latter still can be a conclusion to the treatment you used to put up with, a conclusion where you can move on and things can be more peaceful.

This was sweet and heartwarming to read, love the pics of the cute animals and the beautiful scenery as well. Thanks for sharing! <3

You're very welcome, I'm glad this could make someone happy! ^-^

I'm guessing this is about your topics being locked? There are times where I feel some topics could work fine left open (usually when locked for little potential to spark discussion, despite garnering a few replies already and looking like it can last at least a little longer), but I think the rules are (probably) clear enough that one can tell from them if a certain topic is allowed or not. And one of your topics was locked because there was another topic about the same thing, I believe? That happens sometimes; it's best to search around to see if a topic you have in mind has been done before, either through searching on Google or using this site's search feature It's okay to bump most topics here, unlike on some other forums, don't worry

I think you can also have your topics await moderator approval if you're unsure they'll allow it or not, and if it's not allowed, you won't get any warning points or whatever for it.

I can kinda relate in some ways; being here wasn't doing much good for me a few months ago, and I had to take off for some time... but my mind felt a lot clearer after that, and I'm sure this break should help you out too See you when you get back, and I hope you regain some peace and happiness soon enough

They are against it cause they have been in the church scene for 31 years 

... I feared as much... It sounds like very little could change their views on it, and if something did, it'd come after a long struggle; unless there's good reason for telling them about your sexuality, I feel it might just be best not to say anything, or I guess to distance yourself from them so that they won't really know much about what happens with you, like if you were to get a partner. I'm no expert on situations like this, though, so do what you think is best, maybe make a Life Advice topic about it for more views on the matter

thank you

 

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Its my family that doesn't know and i don't know what to do

Hmm... do you have any idea what their stance on homosexuality is? I'm hoping that they're open-minded about it, in which case, it's just a matter of gradually preparing yourself to tell them, without having to worry about saying or explaining that much... if you don't know or they're not as accepting as they should be, I guess stuff like the image I posted could be useful in showing them that homosexuality is natural and fine and actually pretty beneficial.

If you think admitting your sexuality could get a particularly bad reaction out of them, which I sincerely hope will not happen, then I wonder if it's better not to tell them anytime soon at least... I'd recommend waiting until you're absolutely positive what to do, regardless, and don't worry about it too much; there's no rush to tell them anytime soon. Whatever you decide, I hope things go very well for you ^-^

Not sure if this image will be helpful or not, but I feel it's worth sharing all the same

Great to hear you're becoming more comfortable with yourself, by the way; realizing your true sexuality can feel kinda weird at first, but it's best to slowly embrace it as you're doing. ^-^

I hope things become a little less stressful for you soon enough ^-^ And that you find a bigger bed soon; I remember how annoying it is trying to get comfortable on a bed with not enough room >.< I was one of the people you unfriended, but I'm totally mellow with it :3 May the friends you have keep you good company whenever you're on; I'm sure they'll be understanding if you say something out of stress.

I know the feeling Taking a break away was super refreshing for me, and I hope it'll be much the same for you. Don't worry about welcoming people if you're not feeling up to it; with all the positivity you've spread on here, you really deserve some time to relax and recharge. Take as long as you need and wish, and we'll be here for you when you come back~ <3<3<3

Oh, and some happy Rarity pics for you

Some people just love to be negative and never let reason stop them... props to you for staying polite and not falling to their level.

Debatable.

It's fine if you're not going to miss him- I get your point of view, honestly, I do- but there was more to Candy than his most recent blogs and request shops. He also cared about his friends and making them happy (he used to send them lots of funny videos, and talked about how much he appreciated them), and people here have had good memories with him... If you prefer to forget him, then that's okay, no-one's going to blame you. But from the comments here, it's clear that some people will miss him...  I won't reply after this since I don't want an argument to happen or anything, but let's put Candy's flaws aside for now; please remember this blog is for farewells, not 'good riddance'.

Though I could see this coming, it's still sad to see him go... hopefully things will go well with him, whatever happens for him next.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1Y73sPHKxw

Don't remember you? You haven't been gone that long, silly We barely even talked, and I still remember you pretty clearly. I was worried when I saw your blank avatar and some of your updates that you were giving your account a slow death or something... it's good to see that you're still sticking around ^.^ *hugs* :3

Hopefully this new arrangement won't have too much of an effect on your forum activity, then; if it does, we'll still be happy to see you whenever you can get onto here, regardless of how much time you'll be able to fit in. I'm glad that your aunt is at least understanding about your interests and you being a brony, it worries me when friends seem ready to just vanish forever due to the rest of their family wanting them totally isolated from the forums... From the sound of it, though, your aunt has good enough intentions, and may even warm up to the idea of you spending more time on the forums through your stay with her, hopefully.

I wish you all the best, and may your new arrangement work well for you!

Would this help at all?

I'm not sure if this is really helpful or not- some of my other friends like it when I do this, but maybe it's not the same for everypony - so if you know something else I could do instead, feel free to say

*hugs*

As am I Or am I..? <_<

Nah, I'm kidding too, don't worry

Now you'll definitely be taking your friendships to the grave That does mean I'm a murderer now, though...

*hides in the shadows*