I really wish I could relate to the feeling of "everything crumbling around me", but... I honestly don't think I've felt it that strongly before. I am really, truly, sincerely sorry for you, and I wish I could help in some way. Really.
The worst part is that I feel my coaches don't like me anymore, and I have just the special ED teachers talking to me. "Trying to find my place in The Diary of Jane"