I've never been suicidal.
However that hasn't stopped me from being depressed. I am naturally happy, I'm constantly smiling, look at the good side of things, and I always look forward to the future, but no matter how much I smile and lock away myself to prevent others knowing how I feel inside, it can't hide how crappy my life's been so far. No one expects that seeing how cheerful I can act, because being as stubborn as I am, I do not like sharing my feelings with others, and I completely hate the thought of doing so. Suicide, at least to me, seems like a coward's exit, if someone is truly sad because a loved one passed away, they'd know suicide wouldn't be the answer. How would they feel? knowing they lived to their very last breath and you wasted yours feeling pitiful, and weak? I don't live the best life in the world, I've had many loved ones died, I've seen people turn their backs on me when tension hits, I've pushed myself to not give up because I want others to see i don't give up easily.
...yee, I'm gonna stop before I go completely off topic xD
Oooooooooooh? What exactly do you think I mean when I put the quotations, em? Well, let me tell you what I meant. 13. This is a kid. I'm a kid. Anyone below 18 is a kid. The quotation marks mean, you're a kid, act like a kid. I don't know why someone would be like this at this age. When I was 13, it was the best time of my life. It was when I didn't worry of what people said to me. It's when I could be considered someone, instead of a something. Tell me, because I'm dying to know, what you thought I meant, by using quotation marks, on something that would of sounded worse without them.
Age does mean something because this is a phase I see everyone going through, as sadning as it is, it is only a phase, my best friends swore to me they'd kill themselves because they didn't know what to look forward to, it's a horrible thing to pass through, and it hurt me every minute to see them like that. My life isn't perfect, my parents are divorced, and my mom's family hates me. I have only a few friends who don't know what I go through, and all I do is hide it behind an innocent grin. Suicide isn't the answer, to anything.