Dawnchaser 🌄

*happy wave*

Happy Birthday! 

So as my 6th Forumversary draws near, I have done some thinking and have come to a conclusion. After 6 years, I just don't have any motivation to watch the show or post on the Forums anymore. So tomorrow, August 23rd, 2021. I will be leaving the Fandom. Who knows, maybe I'll be back someday, but as it stands right now I just have no interest in the Fandom. 

But before I go, I wanna just say special thanks to @Tacodidra @The Recherche @The_Gobo @DivineQueen1000 @Rikifive @EpicEnergy @Vefka @lyrabetes3939 @Kawaii Besu @Sonic Shimmer @TheRockARooster @Messy Mane @Lord Valtasar @raykv423 @Nsxile  @Gabosor @Inactive00 @Denim&Venöm @ExplosionMare @Dawnchaser 🌄 and @Trottermare Galamane 

This group, whether they are still here or not, have really left an impression on me, whether through their friendliness, dedication, music tastes or just being everywhere. So thanks to everyone and like I said, perhaps I'll be back sometime down the road.

Happy Birthday!

Merry Birthiversary!

Merry birthiversary!!! 

Happy Birthday! 

Yay for getting 7777 brohoofs! 

That's a really cool emoji o:

~Sunrise over mountains~

It's gone past 8am. I haven't been to bed after spending all night working on various things and now I'm making a curry. Good times.

It's gone past 8am. I haven't been to bed after spending all night working on various things and now I'm making a curry. Good times.

Dance Party Status!  Woohoo!  

@Flutterstep & @Mirage in the mix!  and anyone else who wants to join 

A nice relaxing tea party after all those pancakes you all ate?

I really need to get out of this house before my brother's aura of gloom and contrarian pessimism sends me mad.

It's only technically been a month since we put the house on the market and my brother is fretting that there hasn't been any interest. Of all the times our family has moved we have never had anyone interested THAT quickly. Selling a house takes time and patience. And now he's upset that the exterior is going to put people off.

Aye. I agree that it could benefit from a bit of paint. But neither of us exactly have the money for a professional to do it and it's a long way up.

My brother seems to be under the impression that we could do it ourselves. And usually when he usually uses the word "we" or "our" it usually translates to "me". And out of the two of us, I'm pretty sure I'm the only one who knows how to work a paint brush. I mean my brother can't even pull a pair of curtains straight or make a bed properly, or rinse a plate off before putting it in the washing up bowl. He can't even empty a bin properly.

Keeping that in mind, that even if he was to actually help me paint the side of the house, I really don't relish him trying to foot a ladder while I'm at the top of it. I have pictured many ways my life could come to an end. And myself falling off a ladder from a large height is not one of them.

I. AM. NOT. PAINTING. THE . SIDE. OF. THE. HOUSE.

I really need to get out of this house before my brother's aura of gloom and contrarian pessimism sends me mad.

It's only technically been a month since we put the house on the market and my brother is fretting that there hasn't been any interest. Of all the times our family has moved we have never had anyone interested THAT quickly. Selling a house takes time and patience. And now he's upset that the exterior is going to put people off.

Aye. I agree that it could benefit from a bit of paint. But neither of us exactly have the money for a professional to do it and it's a long way up.

My brother seems to be under the impression that we could do it ourselves. And usually when he usually uses the word "we" or "our" it usually translates to "me". And out of the two of us, I'm pretty sure I'm the only one who knows how to work a paint brush. I mean my brother can't even pull a pair of curtains straight or make a bed properly, or rinse a plate off before putting it in the washing up bowl. He can't even empty a bin properly.

Keeping that in mind, that even if he was to actually help me paint the side of the house, I really don't relish him trying to foot a ladder while I'm at the top of it. I have pictured many ways my life could come to an end. And myself falling off a ladder from a large height is not one of them.

I. AM. NOT. PAINTING. THE . SIDE. OF. THE. HOUSE.

I've decided I'm going to draw again. Many years ago I quit because I couldn't draw as well as I desperately wanted to. I had drawn for a while and carried a portfolio, mostly stills in pencil, and would show it to people as a conversation piece. Some time ago I was at a convention for fantasy/sci-fi novelists and met an author there who also drew. She was only 15 and could draw circles around me...effortlessly. I lost all confidence and gave up.

Watching the fandom fade, seeing some of the fractured and walled-off members here and former friends drift and hide in the shadows, the lack of new inspiring art, the lack of enthusiasm...it all breaks my heart. I need to communicate. The muses that whisper between my thoughts and actions are calling ever more strongly, despite knowing my efforts will probably not mean anything.

While I'm aware that I'm a terrible and tragic person, and weak at making and keeping friends - know that my story in life is also tragic and horrible. MLP FiM gave me something I needed - beauty and joy. I lost them so long ago...and the show brought color back into my dark life. And so I wanted to be with other fans - first to understand what was going on with me (why was I liking this show so much?) and perhaps, to make friends.

There is nothing more valuable in life than love. Love is kind. Love accepts. Love forgives. Love tolerates. Love is strength. Love is truth. We know love because we understand it to be greater than any thought we are ever able to think of to describe it...Love is the only, truly, real thing. And while I may be able to form words about it, I know so little, and I act apart from it much too often. I thought I had found it, and hoped it would repair me...but it was complicated, like everything else.

I came back because I was asked to. But what I found was largely, more of the same. Sure, I'm busy, and I really can't afford to spend much time here, but that's not the real reason why I stayed away. No one ever stays away because they're 'busy'. The better answer is 'they have better things to do'. When you are hurt deeply, everything around seems to die. Suddenly, even the people you love don't matter that much as the black hole inside consumes your life and energy. All of the dominoes fall...all of the glass falls off the shelves. Nothing ever fits together again, and healing seems totally impossible.

But you come back. Like a cycle of dying and rising again, you're different but the same. The mind can forget, but the heart always knows...even a new life has its scars. Is there anything that can make sense of suffering? Or perhaps, we should only become breath so our bodies never feel again. And what could such a ghost know...and what does he mean...and what does she do...and what can it hope for?

So my proposal is - give me something to draw, and I'll draw it. It won't be good, but it will be from me to you.

Ah bollocks! Storm Dennis is getting a head start on things and has taken down the fence panel I just put back up the other day after Storm Ciara's passing. Time to go out into the high winds to steal mah fence panel back! En garde Dennis! You ain't the only force of nature on the planet!

I've decided that I am going to set up a commissions store here on the forums. I was planning on doing so months ago until stuff got in the way of my creative pursuits. I just need to make a few good example pieces and then get a store approved. I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to charge yet though. But a girl needs the bits for food, utilities and the occassional article of clothing.

I've decided that I am going to set up a commissions store here on the forums. I was planning on doing so months ago until stuff got in the way of my creative pursuits. I just need to make a few good example pieces and then get a store approved. I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to charge yet though. But a girl needs the bits for food, utilities and the occassional article of clothing.

Happy Birthday 

Merry Birthiversary!

A belated Happy Birthday for last Friday.

Sorry to have missed it, I've been out of touch with MLPF for a while.

Y'know. Last night I was just thinking about how I haven't encountered any "Bad Gateway" errors for a long time. Today, they seem to have come out to play!

I have four boxes of paper to shred. Alas, it's all confidential stuff so I can't just dump it out in the recycling. How did my life get this boring?

Oh well! Hope you're all having a more fun packed day. Think of me while I listen to the continuous grinding sound of the paper shredder.

I just received my gas and electric bill. It is stated in writing that they owe ME money.