NOX33

That was just the response I needed. Thank you for sharing that with the world. Now here is my advice to you. Keep trying to impress them. Never stop trying until you fulfill that life goal. So they don't appreciate someone simply for their talents. Try something new and don't stop trying until you succeed. Heck, run for president and change the nation if you have to. Exploit this opportunity life has given you. You are gifted with a chance I will envy my whole life.

Now see your problem as a solution to itself. It is a driving factor that is making you better in every way. If you let this continue like it always has been I guarantee your final achievement is on the horizon. Take this as the opportunity to learn, to learn what it is like to suffer and make it out alive, just for the purpose of helping others in the future do the same.

But I can't handle the pain anymore, I keep holding it inside and it is deteriorating me from the inside. It's so hurtful the pain the agony I just want a little relief from it from the pain. I just want to relax and enjoy my life. I just want to be loved and want to be hugged and told that it's ok but I have no one.