~ You are not alone friend ~ When I was talking yesterday in the group and I was honestly feeling exactly the same. I felt as if I was boring and being ignored. I also tried to repress my usual self into someone who others would be more impressed with but what came out was just small talk and nothing useful. You really don't need to try to impress people and I'm also pretty sure everyone else felt awkward around new humans. We enjoy your presence no matter how you act and it is nice knowing there are people who want you to be their friend and talk to you.
Everyone felt awkward but as we talk more often it will become easier for you to be yourself.