Miss

Daaaaaaamn.

Really got overstrung on this crush thing. Y'all. 

I haven't had anxiety since high school but I thought I solved it back then. Turns out I didn't. Was getting hella during work. 

Pretty sure my crush was not into me. Though maybe they just wanted friends however this past week probably just made me seem "weird." 

Crazy, never thought i could get flustered like that. Oh well, risked too much and messed it up. But if there was never a chance then I guess that's better, idk. 

Just gonna go on a limb here and assume my crush doesn't like me back jajaja

Like I kinda felt like they did cuz we were talking so much at first but yea maybe that's just generally how they are with people, which is also how I am, so It made me feel a type of way XD

Oh well 

Hmmm after a day of not engaging with my crush it's almost like I never had one. 

Interesting. 

I shall see how these feelings progress in the future. 

I'VE BEEN ACKNOWLEDGED!!!

jaja

We met three days ago and kinda been chatting non-stop until today. 

I decided to send them a discord friend request cuz we weren't yet but already interacted multiple times in it. 

Anyway, they accepted, but decided to just go ahead and message them jajaja

SOMEBODY STOP ME!!!

When you're waiting for your crush to acknowledge u today Jaja

I am head over heels y'all 

SEND HELP 

Daaaaaaamn when you think u have a crush on someone......

When it comes to people I meet in real life I find that about 90% of the time Im the one who puts the first foot forward to have a future (not romantic) relationship with them. 

Like if we about to have a moment where we won't see each other again, I'm the one who says "hey what's ur fb" or "what's ur number" etc. 

And it's cool that they accept but definitely desire more of the other way around 

This has been the latest on

"depressing things on Miss's mind"

Damn, why is everyone on Tinder boring jaja 

Like I would say maybe I'm "weird" and whatever. But like at least I try to have convos other people are just like "oh yeah that's cool" and it's like bruh. 

Oh how I long for the days when I could meet new people in public spaces 

Watching Return of the Jedi (while working out) for May the 4th 

Later gonna hop on zoom with my friends and watch a little of old school clone wars from early 2000's and chat 

Currently doing a rewatch of Avatar: The Last Airbender again

And got to "Tales of Ba Sing Se" and it didn't feel right to watch Iroh's story 2nd so skipped it and then watched it at the end after Momo's story. 

Makes me tear up or cry every time. 

Idk if anypony watches "Jujutsu Kaisen" but I liked season 1 (first 12/13 episodes) and watched like 7 of the newer ones and wow they were so boring. Then I saw a newer one and was like ok something interesting happening....but then next episodes I just saw now after like a 2 month break of not watching the show. And yea booooooring af. 

Think I'm dropping this one. 

Having one of those "my life feels uneventful" kind of moments. 

Times like these I wish I could see my friends and we could just radiate supportive energy over each other. 

Tough situation at work today that honestly makes me want to quit, my body is extra tired all the time, muscles feel tight too, and then I was reading the latest volume of the  "Kase-san" manga and it just made me feel alot of things. Sigh. Big portion of the feelings was loneliness. Idk. Also just lack of satisfaction in my life. Lack of trajectory. 

Ugh. 

Never thought online shopping would become a hobby for me....

well maybe I did. 

I just never had money. 

But now I'm working and I buy clothes like every week! Loving having all these new outfits

Got my vaccine today! 

Really hoping I don't have any bad side effects cuz was gonna hangout with my friend tomorrow. 

The plan is to get a massage, then get some bubble tea (I LOVE BUBBLE TEA!), meet up with him at Kuma's Corner (get the new burger they have), and then hangout at the library! 

Excited! 

Hey everypony! 

What are yall excited for? Or anticipating  

Satisfied with Academy Awards last night

Very happy with Soul winning best Score, Supporting Actress win for Minari, and Best Actor for Anthony Hopkins

Academy Awards today! 

Here is my personal list of the films I thought were best! (Ranked)

Also best acting performances, cinematography, and score. 

What films did yall love etc?

Not to long ago I got the desire to have my hair washed by someone Im close to/care about. 

A new desire! To have my belly/stomach/(almost abs) rubbed by a person like that as well 

Academy Awards on Sunday! 

So far I've seen 30 films from 2020

I got 3 more that I can watch (2 tomorrow, and one on saturday), possibly 4 on sunday before academies)

Very excited tho many films I didn't get to, and many films that still haven't been released yet in the U.S. etc. 

Oh well 

Going on my first run of the year! 

Pretty cold outside but fuuuck it. 

Got my new shoes not too long ago. Broke them in a bit yesterday when I went out and now I am ready 

My older sibling came over and we watched School of Rock together and still a great time

but the ending with the AC/DC song....I'm just gonna say it... SUUUUUCKS. I guess it's not that bad because it fits well but why did they have to use that boring song. Guitar solo misses some notes, piano solo totally doesn't fit, no bass solo, and Jack Blacks antics in the end become unbearable. 

Also I'm just gonna say it.... AC/DC is one of the most boring mainstream rocks bands. Especially the drumming. Sorry to fans out there but ugh. I can't stand them. 

Had a great day to myself today! 

Got some Taro Milk Tea and it was delicious

Then I saw "Wolfwalkers" in theater. Already saw it online but I loved it and was sad that it wasn't going to be in theaters and then bam this local movie theater played it and it was amazing! Missed it first time around cuz was scared of covid. Theater was very much so putting precautions in. 

Afterwards went to my fav ramen place and had the miso turkey, Ramune, and Japanese cider. It was wonderful! 

Might watch another movie from 2020 when I get home not sure