gonna turn off all caps lock mode for a while now.
i thank you for your respect towards my moments of stress and depression that has plagued me for the recent time. i really don't know if i act anything like you do when you're stressed, but as you might have realized recently: it gets better.
i'm starting to finally get out of this phase with time, but the thoughts still linger: self-despise since many years, incredible stress from my grandmother's death, and depression because i feel unloved, alone, not belonging anywhere. but it gets better. i'm starting to ease up after all these things collectively eating away on me. well, i still am in the negative ways of thinking, but that'll hopefully go away with time. as it did last year when i was completely devastated in every way possible; i was saved.
and i'm sure you have experienced it recently, from recent experiences. once you hit that bottom of feelings, there's only one way left, and it's upwards. don't lose hope, there are people out there that care for you. you'll move along, and make it through in the end.
okay that should be it.