Altastrofae

Shut up! It isn't that simple! There's a psychological reason that I like it, and if that's me trying to fill the void of my sorrows by returning to a happier time, then that's sad, and my momentary happiness is based off of pain.

Also, I don't like only being happy if I'm wearing a wet diaper and sucking on a pacifier, surrounded by plushies

In the end, I'm more fearful of the person that never thinks of doing something bad simply cause its never crossed their mind, than the person that thinks of killing others all the time, but choses not to. After all, who knows what the first person would do if they ever did get the idea in their head. As for your other issues, - and I know this is going to be hilarious coming from me - have you considered seeing some one about this stuff? Also, when it come to being "a guy who's partially gender-blind, likes both genders, loves My Little Pony, is obsessed with anime, worshiping ancient gods, and drawing Yaoi and Yuri ships (and even the clop writing thing)", those aren't really bad thing's, the little thing doesn't seem to hurt anybody (though it does seem to be upsetting you, which isn't good), but does seem to suggest some kind of lack of/need for nurturing and possible trauma that needs addressing. The "rage-fueled spasms" an the other hand, maybe a sign of a neurological problem, and should be checked out if possible (could be do to some kind of head injury, maybe?). I don't think you're crazy or a bad person, but you clearly seem to feel that you have a problem, and if that is the case, than you should seek out help asap. Sorry again about earlier, I didn't realize how badly this whole thing was making you feel, I'll understand if you're mad at me, and don't want to talk to me any more, just know that I do care, and I want to help if I can. I should have been thinking.  

@CHA0SXIII

It's fwine...

But I tink you misundertood me when I said "wage-fooled spwasms"

When I angwy I, wike, shake. Bwuzzing fweelings...

Dis cwould be ba cuz I'm swensitive to metafwisical enewgy, cuz it feews wike dat, and I'm so mad dat I genewate warge ammounts of it, but it's awso pwossiba dat I juwst has sevewe anga issues...

I tink I'm otay now tho, I juwsg needa asep' mysewf, and be hawpy wif who I am