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Watching Russell Howard and heard about Japan's Love your Wife day...

I think it's actually quite sweet, shouting out your love for your wife!

This is almost as good as the original  

Dat moment when you casual mention Littles, only to remember that nopony else knows what a Little is and then you have to go through the embarrassing ordeal of explaining it 

Me: uh... it's nothing, goodbye!

Other guy: Oh no, you're telling me what that is!

Me: LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

Me Later: *rocking back and forth screaming at myself for how screwed up I am

I'm not crazy... 

Dat moment when you casual mention Littles, only to remember that nopony else knows what a Little is and then you have to go through the embarrassing ordeal of explaining it 

Me: uh... it's nothing, goodbye!

Other guy: Oh no, you're telling me what that is!

Me: LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

Me Later: *rocking back and forth screaming at myself for how screwed up I am

I'm not crazy... 

Voices In My Head

All the voices in my head

Are screaming in my ears

Gonna be one Hell of a ride

And they're saying...

You're crazy, you're crazy!

Why do you think that you even deserve to live?

And I cry, I cry...

Just want the voices in my head to die...

The pain is real, but is my life?

Why am I...

I try to hold myself up

Why do I keep falling down?

Cuz the voices in my head are taking their rounds... saying

You're crazy, you're crazy

Why do you keep trying to get back up?

I scream

Just go away, you fucking bastards, I can't deal with you tonight

And I open my eyes and tears are rolling down my face...

And my arm is covered in scarlet-coloured blood...

Why won't the voices curl up and die?

Why won't they leave me alone?

When will they let me live?

Where is the key to the lock... on my... heart...

                                                                                 ~ Crystal

Voices In My Head

All the voices in my head

Are screaming in my ears

Gonna be one Hell of a ride

And they're saying...

You're crazy, you're crazy!

Why do you think that you even deserve to live?

And I cry, I cry...

Just want the voices in my head to die...

The pain is real, but is my life?

Why am I...

I try to hold myself up

Why do I keep falling down?

Cuz the voices in my head are taking their rounds... saying

You're crazy, you're crazy

Why do you keep trying to get back up?

I scream

Just go away, you fucking bastards, I can't deal with you tonight

And I open my eyes and tears are rolling down my face...

And my arm is covered in scarlet-coloured blood...

Why won't the voices curl up and die?

Why won't they leave me alone?

When will they let me live?

Where is the key to the lock... on my... heart...

                                                                                 ~ Crystal

Voices In My Head

All the voices in my head

Are screaming in my ears

Gonna be one Hell of a ride

And they're saying...

You're crazy, you're crazy!

Why do you think that you even deserve to live?

And I cry, I cry...

Just want the voices in my head to die...

The pain is real, but is my life?

Why am I...

I try to hold myself up

Why do I keep falling down?

Cuz the voices in my head are taking their rounds... saying

You're crazy, you're crazy

Why do you keep trying to get back up?

I scream

Just go away, you fucking bastards, I can't deal with you tonight

And I open my eyes and tears are rolling down my face...

And my arm is covered in scarlet-coloured blood...

Why won't the voices curl up and die?

Why won't they leave me alone?

When will they let me live?

Where is the key to the lock... on my... heart...

                                                                                 ~ Crystal

Dat moment when you casual mention Littles, only to remember that nopony else knows what a Little is and then you have to go through the embarrassing ordeal of explaining it 

Me: uh... it's nothing, goodbye!

Other guy: Oh no, you're telling me what that is!

Me: LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

Me Later: *rocking back and forth screaming at myself for how screwed up I am

I'm not crazy... 

Dat moment when you casual mention Littles, only to remember that nopony else knows what a Little is and then you have to go through the embarrassing ordeal of explaining it 

Me: uh... it's nothing, goodbye!

Other guy: Oh no, you're telling me what that is!

Me: LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

Me Later: *rocking back and forth screaming at myself for how screwed up I am

I'm not crazy... 

Dat moment when you casual mention Littles, only to remember that nopony else knows what a Little is and then you have to go through the embarrassing ordeal of explaining it 

Me: uh... it's nothing, goodbye!

Other guy: Oh no, you're telling me what that is!

Me: LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

Me Later: *rocking back and forth screaming at myself for how screwed up I am

I'm not crazy... 

Dat moment when you casual mention Littles, only to remember that nopony else knows what a Little is and then you have to go through the embarrassing ordeal of explaining it 

Me: uh... it's nothing, goodbye!

Other guy: Oh no, you're telling me what that is!

Me: LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

Me Later: *rocking back and forth screaming at myself for how screwed up I am

I'm not crazy... 

Dat moment when you casual mention Littles, only to remember that nopony else knows what a Little is and then you have to go through the embarrassing ordeal of explaining it 

Me: uh... it's nothing, goodbye!

Other guy: Oh no, you're telling me what that is!

Me: LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

Me Later: *rocking back and forth screaming at myself for how screwed up I am

I'm not crazy... 

After attempting to learn some Kanji, I learned some words to add to my list of Japanese words that don't have any direct English equivalent. Now that list is fairly decent, so I thought I'd humour you all with some of them. Some are very funny:

Yugen - a profound understanding of the universe that triggers a deep emotional response

Nito-onna - a woman who is so obsessed with her work that she has no time to iron blouses, and only wears knitted tops (XD I just learned that, hilarious!)

Shuu - a sudden rainstorm

Ukiyo - to be living in the moment; litteral translation, "the floating world" which is why I was confused when I saw it earlier this year 

Kuidaore - to eat yourself into bankruptcy XD

Komorebi - rays of sunlight which flitter down through a canopy of trees

Irusu - the act of pretending to not be home after hearing a knock at your door (I've totally done this XD)

Age-otori - the sorrowful embarrasment of getting a bad haircut XD

and finally... (I just learned this and found it interesting)

Yoisho - not really a word, for it has no real meaning, but more of a sound. It is to be said whilst flopping lazily into a chair after a hard day at work, similar to "ugh" "phew" or "TGIF" XD

After attempting to learn some Kanji, I learned some words to add to my list of Japanese words that don't have any direct English equivalent. Now that list is fairly decent, so I thought I'd humour you all with some of them. Some are very funny:

Yugen - a profound understanding of the universe that triggers a deep emotional response

Nito-onna - a woman who is so obsessed with her work that she has no time to iron blouses, and only wears knitted tops (XD I just learned that, hilarious!)

Shuu - a sudden rainstorm

Ukiyo - to be living in the moment; litteral translation, "the floating world" which is why I was confused when I saw it earlier this year 

Kuidaore - to eat yourself into bankruptcy XD

Komorebi - rays of sunlight which flitter down through a canopy of trees

Irusu - the act of pretending to not be home after hearing a knock at your door (I've totally done this XD)

Age-otori - the sorrowful embarrasment of getting a bad haircut XD

and finally... (I just learned this and found it interesting)

Yoisho - not really a word, for it has no real meaning, but more of a sound. It is to be said whilst flopping lazily into a chair after a hard day at work, similar to "ugh" "phew" or "TGIF" XD

Okay so I just went with my dad to pick up the rent on our old house...

and wow... the nostalgia...

I haven't been there in years, but it brought back some memories.

But what made me sad was that the wood off to the side was cut down...

To expand a trailer park 

I loved those woods too. Me and my sister would play frisbee, sled in the winter, have the leaves occasionally fall into the pool during the summer months, and my dad contracted poison ivy, all because of those woods. Now they're dead... and in their place, a fucking trailer park. Wow.

If I were there, I would've, like, chained myself to a tree, or... or something! Why'd people let it happen?!

WHY??? 

Oh well, now back to my life

Okay so I just went with my dad to pick up the rent on our old house...

and wow... the nostalgia...

I haven't been there in years, but it brought back some memories.

But what made me sad was that the wood off to the side was cut down...

To expand a trailer park 

I loved those woods too. Me and my sister would play frisbee, sled in the winter, have the leaves occasionally fall into the pool during the summer months, and my dad contracted poison ivy, all because of those woods. Now they're dead... and in their place, a fucking trailer park. Wow.

If I were there, I would've, like, chained myself to a tree, or... or something! Why'd people let it happen?!

WHY??? 

Oh well, now back to my life

Okay so I just went with my dad to pick up the rent on our old house...

and wow... the nostalgia...

I haven't been there in years, but it brought back some memories.

But what made me sad was that the wood off to the side was cut down...

To expand a trailer park 

I loved those woods too. Me and my sister would play frisbee, sled in the winter, have the leaves occasionally fall into the pool during the summer months, and my dad contracted poison ivy, all because of those woods. Now they're dead... and in their place, a fucking trailer park. Wow.

If I were there, I would've, like, chained myself to a tree, or... or something! Why'd people let it happen?!

WHY??? 

Oh well, now back to my life

This morning:

Woohoo, got a new tablet! Going to enjoy talking to my friends!

Right now:

IM SO BORED

Okay so I just went with my dad to pick up the rent on our old house...

and wow... the nostalgia...

I haven't been there in years, but it brought back some memories.

But what made me sad was that the wood off to the side was cut down...

To expand a trailer park 

I loved those woods too. Me and my sister would play frisbee, sled in the winter, have the leaves occasionally fall into the pool during the summer months, and my dad contracted poison ivy, all because of those woods. Now they're dead... and in their place, a fucking trailer park. Wow.

If I were there, I would've, like, chained myself to a tree, or... or something! Why'd people let it happen?!

WHY??? 

Oh well, now back to my life

Will Will Smith smith?

Okay so I just went with my dad to pick up the rent on our old house...

and wow... the nostalgia...

I haven't been there in years, but it brought back some memories.

But what made me sad was that the wood off to the side was cut down...

To expand a trailer park 

I loved those woods too. Me and my sister would play frisbee, sled in the winter, have the leaves occasionally fall into the pool during the summer months, and my dad contracted poison ivy, all because of those woods. Now they're dead... and in their place, a fucking trailer park. Wow.

If I were there, I would've, like, chained myself to a tree, or... or something! Why'd people let it happen?!

WHY??? 

Oh well, now back to my life

This is bothering me, so I'm done putting it off 

I'm gonna learn to read that oh so confusing Kanji-script! 

This is gonna take awhile...

It'll help that I can speak the language and sort-of read in Kana, but still, this'll be a challenge

But most things in Japanese are written in Kanji, like books and newspapers, because it's shorter and saves paper. I've never read top to bottom before though, so it might take some getting used to 

Wish me luck! 

In case you're wondering why I vanished from the face of the earth for a week and a half, I left to focus on writing.

Unfortunately, I have also decided to break apart my love for video games, too many electronics have lost their lives at my hands because of me being salty.

If keeping a tablet alive for more then five minutes needs me giving up my favorite part-time so be it.

This is...intresting. 

Okay, I'ma get real with y'all 

When people ask me if I'm depressed, I say no 

But I sound really depressed when I say it 

The truth is, I have no clue 

Like, I'll think of something sometimes which will make me smile 

But then I'll start thinking about how stupid I look smiling for no reason 

So I return to my usual, "indifferent-to-everything" face 

People always tell me how great I am 

But I never saw those things in myself 

Most of my friends are sociopaths who will act like my friends...

But treat me like a total piece of shit sometimes (I had ravioli stuck down the hood of my jacket just yesterday!)

Yet I feel drawn to people like that for some reason 

Maybe I don't like being happy because I think that empty bliss looks dumb, so I just stick around people who make me feel aweful about myself?  Just a guess, but maybe?

I just don't know anymore...