Altastrofae

Okay, I'ma get real with y'all 

When people ask me if I'm depressed, I say no 

But I sound really depressed when I say it 

The truth is, I have no clue 

Like, I'll think of something sometimes which will make me smile 

But then I'll start thinking about how stupid I look smiling for no reason 

So I return to my usual, "indifferent-to-everything" face 

People always tell me how great I am 

But I never saw those things in myself 

Most of my friends are sociopaths who will act like my friends...

But treat me like a total piece of shit sometimes (I had ravioli stuck down the hood of my jacket just yesterday!)

Yet I feel drawn to people like that for some reason 

Maybe I don't like being happy because I think that empty bliss looks dumb, so I just stick around people who make me feel aweful about myself?  Just a guess, but maybe?

I just don't know anymore... 

Okay, I'ma get real with y'all 

When people ask me if I'm depressed, I say no 

But I sound really depressed when I say it 

The truth is, I have no clue 

Like, I'll think of something sometimes which will make me smile 

But then I'll start thinking about how stupid I look smiling for no reason 

So I return to my usual, "indifferent-to-everything" face 

People always tell me how great I am 

But I never saw those things in myself 

Most of my friends are sociopaths who will act like my friends...

But treat me like a total piece of shit sometimes (I had ravioli stuck down the hood of my jacket just yesterday!)

Yet I feel drawn to people like that for some reason 

Maybe I don't like being happy because I think that empty bliss looks dumb, so I just stick around people who make me feel aweful about myself?  Just a guess, but maybe?

I just don't know anymore... 

Okay, I'ma get real with y'all 

When people ask me if I'm depressed, I say no 

But I sound really depressed when I say it 

The truth is, I have no clue 

Like, I'll think of something sometimes which will make me smile 

But then I'll start thinking about how stupid I look smiling for no reason 

So I return to my usual, "indifferent-to-everything" face 

People always tell me how great I am 

But I never saw those things in myself 

Most of my friends are sociopaths who will act like my friends...

But treat me like a total piece of shit sometimes (I had ravioli stuck down the hood of my jacket just yesterday!)

Yet I feel drawn to people like that for some reason 

Maybe I don't like being happy because I think that empty bliss looks dumb, so I just stick around people who make me feel aweful about myself?  Just a guess, but maybe?

I just don't know anymore... 

Okay, I'ma get real with y'all 

When people ask me if I'm depressed, I say no 

But I sound really depressed when I say it 

The truth is, I have no clue 

Like, I'll think of something sometimes which will make me smile 

But then I'll start thinking about how stupid I look smiling for no reason 

So I return to my usual, "indifferent-to-everything" face 

People always tell me how great I am 

But I never saw those things in myself 

Most of my friends are sociopaths who will act like my friends...

But treat me like a total piece of shit sometimes (I had ravioli stuck down the hood of my jacket just yesterday!)

Yet I feel drawn to people like that for some reason 

Maybe I don't like being happy because I think that empty bliss looks dumb, so I just stick around people who make me feel aweful about myself?  Just a guess, but maybe?

I just don't know anymore... 

does anyone else have a day where they just feel tired of liking unpopular things and opinions and just feel like giving up on things you feel are gonna get you a ton of hate by certain people (or alter it so it will be more "acceptable") even when you still wanna do it your original way but just don't know how or if its worth it?

Haven't seen @Sylveon post in a bit, maybe I missed it, maybe I haven't gotten to it just yet as I'm catching up,

but I just wanna remind people, keep that hope a burnin' :3

Saw @TBD post this somewhere.
This perfectly sums up what was going through my head for most of the time I was at P'con NYC last year o3o

YESSSS, i am a squirrel now ^^

What's wrong with me?

Seriously, everything that's ever made me want to not just lay down and die has been some kind of taboo.

Oh, he practices the occult? Taboo against God

Oh, he watches My Little Pony? Taboo against the social order

Oh, he's into guys, too? Taboo against the social order and God

Oh, he's a Little? Well, you might as well kill him now, 'cause why not? He clearly doesn't matter! We might be doing him a favor, he's clearly not happy. . . 

Why don't they all shove it up their asses and let me live how I please. Just stop the ignorance, because ^this^ don't make sense to me. If anything, those people are a taboo against BASIC HUMAN MORALS!!! Geez, sons of bitches, I just can't... deal with those people right now!!!

*deep breaths*

Okay... rant over... I'm good

Its really trippy playing as my persona. After seeing him in my profile picture for so long and going back into WoW. Its kinda hard to explain the feeling.

Its really trippy playing as my persona. After seeing him in my profile picture for so long and going back into WoW. Its kinda hard to explain the feeling.

Listen to this song! 

It's good!

Friend: Oh, you're reading Tokyo Ghoul?

Me: Yeah, I love it! A little different than the anime, but it's good

Friend: You don't ship Kanake and Touka's brother do you?

Me: *gasp* *squee!!!!!* People do that?!

Friend: DON'T! It doesn't work!

Me: It does tho o3o

Friend: How??? He tried to kill Kanake several times!

Me: Pft... all couples fight sometimes. Sometimes you wanna rip your boyfriend's flesh out until there's nothing left but blood and guts!

Other times you just wanna lay on the bed and cuddle them until you can't cuddle anymore 

Friend: Oh, you're reading Tokyo Ghoul?

Me: Yeah, I love it! A little different than the anime, but it's good

Friend: You don't ship Kanake and Touka's brother do you?

Me: *gasp* *squee!!!!!* People do that?!

Friend: DON'T! It doesn't work!

Me: It does tho o3o

Friend: How??? He tried to kill Kanake several times!

Me: Pft... all couples fight sometimes. Sometimes you wanna rip your boyfriend's flesh out until there's nothing left but blood and guts!

Other times you just wanna lay on the bed and cuddle them until you can't cuddle anymore 

I was in school today and my teacher during first hour caught me reading Fallout Equestria in the middle of class 

It was awkward, she saw my computer screen open to it and asked what it was I was reading, and I was like "Uh....... a story about ponies in a nuclear wasteland" I felt so stupid because I was supposed to be working on my page in our school's yearbook, but instead she had just caught me reading pony fanfiction 

I'm always reading pony fanfictions in first hour because it's so boring actually working on the yearbook, but this was the first time I had been caught, and by the teacher nonetheless  

Migraine medication has arrived! I just have now started to get panic attacks because work is stressing me out WAY too much.

What. The. Heck did I just see?

'K so I had a dream where some prodigy in our class asked me out. Dafuq?

So I say to him "Are you even gay?"

He says "No, but I need a date"

I say, "For what, you freaking hack?"

He doesn't say anthing after that, he just follows me into the library, then I left school, then I woke up.

For real, for a dream-person, he was being a total bitch.

And so we're clear, this guy is not my type. He's one of those nerdy guys, and not the cute kind of nerd, either. I'm talkin' 'bout the squares whose voices haven't dropped yet and thinks school is more important than most other things. No thanks, I'm good. Interesting thought though, my subconscious mind :3

No explanations o3o

Hmm, I think i am going to do the 7 Day Vegan Challenge Baby (solves all yo' problems) again

Time for bed loves  goodnight amazing community! Sleep well or have a wonderful day!! You all deserve the very best of everything 

No explanations o3o

I honestly cannot believe MLP made a Rick and Morty reference like wow I did not think they would do such a thing XD 

I honestly cannot believe MLP made a Rick and Morty reference like wow I did not think they would do such a thing XD 

I honestly cannot believe MLP made a Rick and Morty reference like wow I did not think they would do such a thing XD 

I honestly cannot believe MLP made a Rick and Morty reference like wow I did not think they would do such a thing XD