I have changed a lot from the kid i once was. I used to be a very negative person, I didn't care about people's feelings, beliefs or my own of each. I was sad and depressed, and hated people because of it.What I didn't realize is that it was my fault why people didn't like me for who I was. I brought the depression and lonelyness on my own end.
But over the years I kind of stood in place, until I met one of the best people I've ever met. My best friend. She wanted to be my friend even though how stand offish I may of seemed. Eventually I let her win, and we became "friends". But one day I was feeling really bad that day, and she just bothered me it seemed at the time. And I was really angry with her. That was the first time I made anyone cry, and she made me feel for the first time my own medicine.
From there I decided to try to open my mind more, and be more passive. I tried to understand why people see things the way they do, and as i learned more about others, I learned more about myself. Eventually I opened myself up and expressed my emotions that I built up for roughly 8 years. It felt good knowing I had someone who i could trust, someone to talk to. And at that moment I realized how precious friendship was to me.
As I let the negative out, I started putting the positive in. I went outside more and more importantly, I became happier. And she became happier too, she was so glad to see me smile! and it felt good to smile honestly again. Sadly not all good things last. My best friend was a foregin exchange student, and was going back to her home in Spain. I was so sad that day.
She told me that she sought to be my friend because she had no one she knew, and I didn't have any friends, so she thought we had something in common. After school we hanged out until she had to leave to pack for her departure flight. And i felt sad and negative again. But I thought of her, and that she wouldn't want to see me like that. So i made the effort to be the best I can. And so when we email eachother, she can see that I have truely taken a turn for the best.
My change in my attitude increased my grades, and i learned how interested i am in various different subjects, what kind of talents I do have, and what kind of a person I could become. So since then I've made an effort to try to understand everything I can, in as many perspectives as i can so that I can hopefully be that same kind of friend for someone else, and pay it forward. It progressed from trying to be the best I could for her, to being the best I could for me. and my family; who was so concerned for me, but filled with joy as I changed.
I am so thankful for all the things my friend has done for me. Because of her I can walk this life feeling happy, and be proud of the transformation I have made.