Widdershins

Need to give you all some breaking news. I'm afraid that...

 That Snoggy may rule!

 BestIceDragon!!

We need more sheep/goat pokemon. One of the fewest touched-on species. Our only examples are one... that loses its fur and becomes some sort of weird weasel... and the cool Gogoat! ...Plus, could always use more Ice types!

 And, honestly, after Alola's trend of oddly humanoid Pokemon, we really need to get back to quadrupedal pokemon, especially in our Starters.

Planty Doggo!

 Now if I could only figure out some sorta Icey Doggo, tundra wolf sorta pupper!

Wish people interacted in real life like they do in Pokemon's Alola Region's Festival Plaza when they first meet you.

 "Hi. I'm needy.   ...yeah, trust me. If you wish to continue interacting with me, that'll become very important."

"HAI! I LIKE EGGS! YOU LIKE EGGS?! I DO! I LOVE EEEEEEEGGGGGGS!!!"

"How impressive that you managed to deduce that I not only like the color blue, but understand it, indeed, on a fundamental level."

          ...you're currently wearing nothing but blue, holding blue items with blue accents on them... and you showed up during an event that was all about the color blue...

  "Yes. And it was quite clever of you to put all that together!"

  "I want a family.  ...Oh,not with, like you, or, like, actually my own. Just take somebody else's family if they were offering, y'know."

 "...I like female swimmers. Specifically female.   ...Wanna guess why?~"

  Then there's me. If you ever get a curly-headed mop of a guy wandering through your Festival Plaza, you'll know me by my constant posing & incapacity to talk without emoting at the top of my lung capacity.

 "Hu! Hu! Huu-HUU-HRAAAAAAAAN!!!"

I really like animals. And I love pokemon.

 Know what's great about pokemon? Sure, they're not real, you're limited to your interaction... but you cooperate, through small things you gain a bond of trust & happiness. You may not do much together, but what you have, you can see it come to fruition. They grow & change like as does your friendship. Just... j-just seeing a smiling face, no m-matter how fabricated, and knowing I did a little something there to bring that smile around. Let a little light into their internal world. It helps me want to keep living.

 Humans though... I hate humanity.

 A boss repeats to you a few times a month the same static phrase, "Customer Angry" because its likely the only thing in your language he can manage... and he expects you to understand, he assumes you'll just change your actions, your intent, your worldview & reality because you somehow can grasp what implied action is asked of you in those two damned words. That's what all humans do, expect you to warp to whatever undescribed reality they see & never bother to teach you, hold you, lead you along the way... Th-...damned, hateful, arrogant, cruel humans...

I-it's... j-just...s-s-s-so... Mean. I can't take it.

...

 Reality hurts... so unreal.

Mareanies before Meanies.

 *tightly clutches his Mareanie plushie*

I can't play games like Hearthstone & now, Magic's Arena. Like... I can't play the game if I keep having to go against those who only seek to win & thereby counter everything I do. Between lag & having it being continuiously made clear that there will always be those better than me, I cannot focus on being happy with my own actions & results.

 Competitiveness breeds contempt.

 I hate winning.

Jeez, what's wrong with America lately?

 No, you don't fire people over just posting pictures of nooses. Nooses are not racist.It's a symbol of suicide, other races besides blacks have gotten hung. You're all missing the point here.

 The said picture is a meme. "Back to School necklaces." "Hahayes." Like, going back to school is deadly. It's called dark humor. Maybe not completely befitting the school environment... but almost every kid there has seen a joke like that, if not that exact one.

 Some Virginia governor had a picture surface of him as a younger, stupider guy in blackface & hanging out with another in a Klansman costume. Yeah, hurtful humor to say the least... but that doesn't mean that he is forever taking every opportunity to go out & hurt a specific sect of people. If that were true... he probably wouldn't have gotten hired to a public office.

Racism, in & of itself, is not hurtful. It used to be a comedy routine in many places, Japan even. Just because the symbology is used... just because you think it might reference it... does not warrant you assuming people can't change, that there is no other possible interpretation of perceived action... You don't fire people & ruin their lives. You don't form a mob around him, chanting his name & crime.

 You don't meet hatred with hatred.

So, have this idea for another Anthro OC. Any ideas of how a literal Fox Squirrel would look like?

 Think alot of squirrel qualities are carried in the big eyes & floofy tail. And foxes also have floofy tails! Fox squirrel has got to be a perfect combo!

 Still don't get how Fluttershy ever got friends. Especially somepony as brash as Dash. (Think I made a topic here about that.)

 When you get like Flutters... you don't leave the house much. You have to be pushed into doing literally everything... its hard to see any experience as others constantly laughing at you...

 It... kind of hurts me to see the show just glance over this and just assume a relationship by just throwing the characters into one adventure & peril after the next. I've yet to learn from here how one STARTS a friendship...

Just got back from picking the rest of the family back up from the airport. Maybe things'll get better now that I got others around, but...

 I've been so out of sorts lately. Everything's just... blurred together, busy & unfocussed. Just stuck in stress & being on edge.

So... so apparently… the character bio list pages are in such bad condition... That not only does it erase any text modification, or indeed the spaces put in to separate paragraphs...

 But they also removed the "Other" section... so that, in my Hydrasona's page, when I state that I'll go into far more detail about the structure & arrangement of its heads/parts in said section...

 They just lopped that clean off my character page. Entire paragraphs, gone.

 Wow. And its been this way for at least two years now.

 Can we please get some work done here? At least have it operable? I'm going to have to go back sometime to re-redo all of it!

Was stressed after work the other day, so I bought myself this super fluffy Bewear doll.

 As I'm sure the couple in the car behind me, in heavy traffic, noticed.

 I was snuggling it between stops, spinning him around the car, using him as a headrest, playing with it enough to see it through the back window, heh~

If only I had a family. Somebody to greet me with a reliable source of hugs. Just... for once in my existence... stability, safety...

Guess WHAT?!

 I got yelled at a SECOND TIME TODAY at work!

 Well, reprimanded. "Don't take breaks when we're busy" he says. Despite the fact that it wasn't, that I took precautions & asked the fellow I was working with to cover for me, who said it was fine. A guy who's actually faster than me. Despite the fact that I'm obligated to a break every three hours, which was the agreement before.

 Despite the fact that this rule has only been brought up once & not been enforced in the slightest as I know others regularly don't ask.

 No, no, no. You just wanted to yell at me. Because I don't talk. You know what'd helped the situation, Sir? Telling me beforehand that we had a buncha orders. Y'know, bloody communicating, or as it's known... MANAGING. AS THE THING YOU, A MANAGER DOES!!

ALL things pointed to me being able to make my own decision, to be able to be trusted, but no... you have to just TELL me things when it fits YOUR schedule.

... I'm going to HR to at least complain. Hopefully I can get these bastards fired or at least somewheres for me to be safe.

Just got back from walking off base for the first time! So scary!

….Gad, I hate the big city. Like, you're within two feet of potential rushing traffic at all times. Every store & place is just boxed rooms stacked ontop of each other. Claustraphobic for this here CountryBoy!

 Of course, walked by a store that had Four cats lounging outside! They didn't care the least about the heavy traffic!

Great news, everyposter!

 Hatsune Miku got married to a Japanese man! So happy for her!!

 ... oh, you know! Hatsune Miku, the Vocaloid? The popular hologram pop idol? She actually married an organic!

 Eeee! Love despite logical or physical restraints! I’m so happy!!

 Surely this means I have a shot!!

Wait... Widdershins just snapped me out of a deep blue, mindbreaker of a funk.

Here we go... follow me here...

  If you're so hung up on being unable to destress... that you have trouble conceiving what being happy, not being head-clouded-out wit' stress n' all that... Then, if you don't know the Opposite, then how do you know the State You're In?

 What we're doing here... is self-labeling. We're perceiving a state that we're not, just so we can call whatever we are now as bad. We're making ourselves feel bad because we feel bad feeling good!

 Whatever it is that we are, we are that as of now. Present Perfect! 

 We're a worrywart, we scare easily, so what? Implying a tendency to react a certain way to certain stimuli, to whit: a "personality", is merely conjecture. 

 If you Are what you Aren't, you Aren't what you Are! 

 Whatever makes a being, even for lack of being able to fully conceptualize itself, self-creates. Like seeing the letters on a page as the vacant shape of white!

 …. I think I just disproved my own existence.

…

 Mother used to tell me it looked crazy to talk to yourself.  … then she'd immediately turn around, in the same breath, and talk aloud to herself to figure something out.

 Mother taught me that having any thought was shameful. That you only existed to serve those who held power over you. That I could do nothing but mindlessly follow, that independent thought, much less creativity, was stupid & an affront to everybody else. I... don't know what's Real.

 I... I don't want to help anybody anymore. That goes nowhere. I can't help how others see things, or how effective I am. I can't please anybody.

…

   ...What I want to do... Is put an idea in heads. Make a thing others will look at, & go: "I would have never conceived of such a thing! This here is something only YOU could have done, and while I don't know where I'll go with the idea from here, I thank you, and you have added something to my life." 

 Just... for once in my short existence... I want somebody to actually SEE ME. Not with eyes, in a literal sense, but connect, have some sort of... meaning. A meaning derived from only perception & interpretation. A place to meet mutually where somebody else can't just grab me by the throat & scream that I'm lying to them & forcing them to think something. 

I want to create. But... b-but I can't. 

I can't validate my own existence. I have to have somebody judge me & TELL me its good. I have to please others... b-because if I don't... they'll hurt me again. I have to know when the punch is coming... because its the only thing I can do.

I'm afraid to create... because I can only see risk.

 ...but... I have to get it out...

  Every night, I lie in bed. Brilliant colors fill my head. A million dreams keep me awake and I wonder how the world can be...   A vision of the world I see, a million dreams is all it takes. A million dreams for the world I'm gonna make... 

You ever get your hands covered in flour, clap... then watch as the resultant, tiny explosion spreads thousands of individual motes, clearly specked upon reality, each with its own ethereal existences unto itself, yet so short lived? It reminds you of how so very many things can be spaced out from each other, yet come together to form such a pretty pattern.

 Like creating galaxies by only your own mirth.

 Makes one glad to be able to take in input & energy. To see the everything in everything!

Darn, just realized I have the hair of a Furfrou! Specifically, Heart or La Reine.

What’s your favorite?!

 How most of my mornings/bedtimes go.

Good Nightening, everybeing!

Oh, on MtG arena now! And on Discord! If you wanna play sometime!