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We were blessed that we get to hear him as Batman one last time in the upcoming new Batman game, Suicide Squad, Kill the Justice league.

Wankada forever. I actually love this movie! It was emotional. I know people didn’t like the whole idea about killing off the og black panther but I thought it kinda nice in a way to pay respect and contribution for Chadwick. The first funeral felt personal and I see it in a way that not only we lost a character but also a good person Chadwick himself. So I really felt it hard right there. The movie didn’t fall into a hero spectrum but rather a cultural aspects and issues. Making this movie different from the rest of the marvel movies. Overall 9/10

Almost finished Wednesday on episode 5 now. It’s getting there being good I suppose. Although I kinda guessed where this all going from what I can tell so far. 5/10. But these characters like Tyler and Xavier.. seriously need a rewrite. But I do love Wednesday even more since she’s brings back the good o memories of my younger self. Then again is it really a “phase”?

I just finished Sonic Prime, didn’t quite like it as much I thought I would. Everything seems quite repetitive just to drag the plot. Most parts feels like MLP friendship is magic. Which I have no problem with mlpf itself but the concept doesn’t seems to sail good with Sonic here. I guess my expectations for a good descent Sonic series like the Sonic x or the prequel Sonic frontier was just too high. 3/10. I just need a good sonic series before I die- quite disappointing.

Gifts (badges) are being made now. Please be patient and hopefully it will be done by the day before xmas!

Thanks Silky!

I was go to say…

For those who are from round one and haven’t gotten the emails from the gift givers crew yet, please be patient we’re still working on that! You will be getting a PM hopefully this week before Hearth Warming Day! Thank you.

Can’t believe the Beauty and Beast Stage on ABC starts at 6 pm and I’m not getting off till then… I thought it starts at 7… I’m gonna missed an hour of it. I was looking forward to it since last two weeks!

I don’t really believe 80% or 90% give or take, on what the church taught me anymore. I still go because it’s more being dragged you know? Family. Two thing church taught me that stuck to me is prayers works and be good and serve others. Pffft god what good did that lesson teach me? Let’s see, pray and hope for the best but end up nothing but disappointments. So I stopped. Serving others? Please don’t get me started, they didn’t teach me the part “nice guy finish last.” Love people. They taught me to love my neighbors and your god first but never tells me to love myself first. And people wonder why am being so spiteful to them? Don’t get me wrong, while I cut myself off from religion, that doesn’t mean I agreed with these idiots no sayers who BS on religions for dumb reasons. I have my own personal reasons but just because I cut myself off, doesn’t mean religions are bad. Only its people.

No health issues here, just dealing with with your everyday’s society bs. God, I sometime wonder how I’m still keeping myself sane.

Yep, Signora from Genshin currently, since she's like Elsa but as antagonist. I don't have character crush at all but Elsa was my first fictional crush. I'm have a crush on Namani Kento from JJk, he's so handsome. He's also my first guy character crush. It's funny that I'd have zero interests on guys for obvious reason but I'd get love interests/crushes towards fictional ones since Nanami, guess I finally found my type.

Yet another interesting one to share. I believe the time was taking around the 70's, i wasn't quite sure what role I was doing since the dream keep going back and forth. I was a very tall man around my 40's. I was with this other man who was much shorter than me. We were going around in this building. We're like two business man. We visit rooms, and one of the room was quite disturbing (not going to share it..yet) but as we walked around some more, I realized while it may seems we ran our business like any normal company, but behind of it all, it was actually a child-sex traffic and prostitution. And we're working as a pimp behind the curtains as we worked as a normal business man to cover it up. Although, something about this man I was with, I didn't feel comfortable around with despite of us working under the same shady job. The dream shifted, and the man was upset with me about something and I didn't bother to listen to him. I supposed I was his boss. The last thing I said to him was that I know about him being a serial killer and he should watch what he's saying. The dream shifted and it looks like a year or two passed, and the man doesn't work for me anymore. I was working and got a call from the man. He told me that he have my daughter and hid her away somewhere in the building. I panicked and called the polices. At that very moment, I didn't care about my cover being blown and I know the man didn't care either. I just want to find my daughter. The police came and helped me search for her. They did eventually uncover all my human traffic work but they came back to me with a bad news. They found her dead and her was body hanging. I remembered falling onto my knees, with my face nearly touching the floor, and brawled like a baby. The man turned himself in and that was the last thing I remember.

My face features... It's kinda square-ish and wide with a board jaws. Although, It only looks good on the side of the angle but front? no. I hate it because I can't find a good hairstyle to fit it and I grow tired of my current style. But sadly it's the only "hairstyle" that fits my face. I would give anything just to have it a little more narrow.

“Wednesday”. I’m only on episode 3 and already bore with it. I guess I was having too much expectations since I’m familiar with the Addams family franchise/lore since the begin of their time, directed by Tim Burton, and composed by Denny Elfman. It’s like watching a very cringy “monster” teen show and not in a good way. Wednesday was good but the rest falls. The one character I hate so much so far is that Xavier. God, take a freaking hint when a girl DOESNT like you man. And most of all, he acted be like a big fat jerk and shitty towards her when she doesn’t return the feelings! I can’t stand a guy who’s not only clingy, obnoxiously obsessed, but just a asscrack when he can’t accept the fact when a girl have zero interest in them. And when the girl did show hints that they’re not interested, he continued to pursue her! I hope he dies. It’s not “romantic” it’s just pathetic and annoying. I was kinda disappointed that the film doesn’t look like a Tim Burton even though he directed it. Needs more “morbid” setting and unsaturated colors for the background and setting. Don’t know how to describe it but if you seen all his films you will know what I mean. so far… I rate this series 3/10. Poor predictable plot so far, and poor acting skill from mostly the guys and poor story pacing. Hopefully it will get better but… knowing how bad it looks I doubt it.

Burn out from my work. It’s like every day it’s getting harder for me to wake up and to come to work. Been dreaming about my work lately too where my boss expect me to sale this or that or have some ridiculous expectations from me. And it came to the point that I don’t want to advertise a single thing anymore. Thinking of quitting several times but it’s the only job that accepts and pays me decent regardless of my background and experience….

My trip to wizardary world! It was like a blast of my childhood came to me and washed away all these 10 years of shit during my adulthood. I literally cried out of happiness. I never felt such happiness since my 8th grade school play. Sadly it only lasted a day. And back to my old self again.

Not happy about it but indulging myself… and I’m not talking about food. But it helps.

If my look and personality does not concern a person I like that would be the greatest thing ever. I hate to bring her up again, but I’d have date this girl I used to know. I wish I wasn’t too “unstable” when we still hang out… partly I know it’s the reason why she ghosted me. Then again, that tells me she isn’t for me. If a person can’t accept me wholeheartedly or can’t go through troubles time with me then I’d be better off without them.

The most anime betrayal for me was in Jujutsu Keisen.. warning anime/manga spoiler.

I believe my work are good since I pour my heart into. Sadly the art/writing industries don’t seem to acknowledge it.

It would be nice to be with someone who will be there with me when I need them and who’s willing to through all my troubles but knowing how I am, don’t think that will ever going to happen. So maybe I would be single for quite a long time. I don’t mind it really- since I think partly I do have these random moments when I feel lonely and just need someone to be with and It doesn’t need to be romantic or anything like that.

I know I already reply to this. But coming back to it after two years or how ever old my previous post was, but this took me a while to realize this. And I just want to write this out. I do care a lot for my family with compassion. But it’s difficult for me to express love or affection towards them since I grow up pretty much like “tough love” setting. It unfortunate that I expressed more of anger or frustration towards them than I do with love. It kinda hard to explain it in words honestly. Like I said, it’s very weird for me to show affection towards them and likewise for them towards me. Even if they did, I would have feel weird or withdraw from it. That’s why I feel kinda cringe seeing other people doing it, like showing affection in their family. My dad doesn’t really know how to raise us like a dad but I don’t hold no grudges against that. It’s just frustrating most of the time. My mom a bit of an “overly mother” type but it does get the point that she sometime discard our feelings. Like it’s “my way or the highway” rather than the emotional support type. Which of course hence I learned my “tough skin” from. Again, I don’t hold grudges against her for that. I don’t hate the way I was raise. I don’t blame my parent the way how I came out to be. My siblings aren’t much use for emotional support either. They’re just there because well, for the sake of “stick together” siblings. I sometime think my “caring” it’s more my fear of seeing them sad or disappointed and they might hate me. Hence, this is where I question myself, is it my caring out of love or is it out of fear? Overall, I feel that “love” is a very strong word that I feel I’m not worthy for it. I do care for them deeply but I don’t know how to express it.

Hmm let’s see..

Thinking about how much I hate it when a person tries to make themselves sound they are not at fault and made me like I’m the one being over exaggerated. This is exactly why I never ever open up and it’s always better to bottle my emotions and feeling up. I’m always have to be the “bad guy” here… maybe I should just accept it.