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I hated school…always has been since grade K. In fact, I still do. I think it’s just the system and dumbass teachers/staffers that I hate about and not the learning and the education itself. I only like it if I know I’m getting something out of it. Otherwise, fuck school. I don’t really have something that I seriously like since as a kid my interest kept on shifting.

Exhausted like hell. Tackling two jobs, babysitting two dogs, dealing chores at home, helping with making lunch and dinner, attending a class…all this, every day now. Even though I live with my siblings, I feel like I’m the only one multitasking here! Everyone else either just focus on their school or work itself.(understandable but still). I’m so fucking tired. I seriously need my “me time”.

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No TV but a PC instead. I was like 9-10 and played games there almost everyday. You can I’m one of the earliest PC player before it become ‘cool’.

Dark Souls or Bloodborne. But mostly Dark souls and get Peter Jackson and David Benioff to make it! Imagine listening OST and watching nice beautiful scenes in a large dark theater! I probably would cry. (I’m obsessed with Dark Souls ) Forgot to add Hotline Miami. God that would be freaking sick to see this game being adapted into a live movie. I would trust Matt Reeve to direct it since I love his Batman movie and he can definitely do so well with a crime related movie such as Hotline Miami. I want to see his intake making HM into a thriller crime movie except with bright Neon colors instead of black and white.

If they have a good duo dynamic otherwise I don’t ship.

No full identity pictures of myself, unless if it’s someone I know very well or if it’s just half or more of my face covered. Don’t share anything personal about myself to avoid identity theft, bank theft, ects. Never ever get into an argument no matter how much I disagree with them. I used to do that a lot but now that I’m at my 30s and always fucking mentally tried- so arguing online isn’t healthy for my mindset and found it utterly useless. I gotten better to ignore it and move on. Never click random links that I don’t know anything about.

Definitely crime/mystery thriller and fiction based from history itself. I had wrote many fiction stories before and it took me a long time to figure out which genres is my strength. I don’t the ability to come up with the most wildest imagination to create something like JR Tolkien or JK Rowling, but I based my ideas through real life experiences.

Häagen-Dazs was a tribute to Denmark for their fair treatments towards the Jews during World War 2. Even some of the Nazi who are stationed there an an example, Werner Best would tried to prevent the Jews from being deported.

Motivation. I need to have some type of motivation or at least a tutor to help me study. I would go over word terms and study guides over and over. I tried not to memorize but rather understand the materials. That being said, that’s why I need a huge motivation or interest on the topic in order for me to study well. I also depends on tutors to help me in case I lose motivation to study.

I could go from casual to punk rock to formal or mixed match in between. I tend to wear fashionably as much as I could. But these days now, it’s just my work clothes or too tired to dig around my closet, figuring out what to wear.

It was a pretty weird dream but it looks like it took in a place somewhere in a church except I have the feeling it’s hell instead. Because it’s was damp and very hot. I was standing at the front of this so- called church and then there’s this guy right below me since in the center of this place, there’s a pit. Next to the guy was a bunch of mummified people mostly men and they were still alive. They guy said to me that these men were victims. Then he told me if I do not tell the name of each of the victim, they will be thrown down into the pit of sharp spikes. The group of mummified men were scream and yelling for help. I couldn’t say their names because their face was covered. I wanted to save them because I can tell they’re in so much pain. But every time I failed to say the victim’s name, they got thrown off and stabbed by the spikes, dead. Their dead body were taken back up to the guy alive again as if it was starting over for me to do it again. Their screaming was the same that I had in my past dreams… I never liked that scream.

Well...hopefully not emotional damage to this girl back in the middle school although I regretted it for teasing her for fun because its wasn't funny to her thus it made her cry. Another time back in elementary was an accident when I have this one girl push me on the swing and the one of the loose chain on the swing caught her hand and damaged her hand. She was crying and the teacher that was watching over us kids during recess thought I did it on purpose. And told me to leave her be and go to "time out". She was taking to the hospital for stitches. The next day i said I was sorry to her but she ignored me. And now the other classmates thought I hurt her. There's also one time which is not all too serious as the what happened to the girl, but there's one kid and he and my classmate was just teasing and ruffing each other. I thought it would be fun to join and kick him on the back. It wasn't a hard kick too but he cried. I tired to explained that it was just for fun and not to hurt him but the teacher took me to the office and talked my parent about it..again. This doesn't count as to the topic here but another incident being falsely accused, is when my own class group for second lang leaner in elementary thought I destroyed their garden and the teacher actually believes them. I didn't say anything because I figured what else is new about me being trouble? pffft. Although, I wouldn't say I'm a goody-two shoe either, since I'm a bit of a troublemaker in school too. So I figured this is where all the misunderstanding and being falsely accused kept on happening to me.

I still live with my family so I don't drink in front of them unless we're in for a special occasion then I drink like hell. But I would drink at least or a better way to word it, limit myself with one can of beer every work days or school days..I tried not get into a habit of it by drinking more than one can.. But hell, it sure helps though.

Eh.. lets just say I have too many setback to count nor to mention about. Too many this and that without understanding why.

I enjoyed psychology, quantum physics, astronomy, and Chemistry. But I most like doing chemistry especially organic. Love it ever since high school. Sadly college killed it for me.

Not a teacher, a vice principal. She called a police on me when I was 13 yrs. Not going into details but all I will say is that it was all a misunderstanding. Her and the principal thought it would help me but it doesn’t. It actually scared the shit out of me- not the fact they called on the police but the fact on what would my parent think. I remember my mom’s reaction begging on her knees for the police not to take me away. Saying that I’m a good kid. I also remember when they took me away and me looking through the window with my mom distraught face and most of the classmates just watched me as I go. It was definitely the worst day of my youth life. When they released me after getting the whole misunderstanding situation fixed, I was embarrassed to face my classmate, wondering what they think of me. Ever since then, I hated the vice principal and the principal. My principal passed away just a year ago. I don’t know why it stuck me hard, but surprisingly, it did..I actually did cried after hearing that new. I thought back on that day and learned she does cares about me and never do it out of ill intentions. My hatred for her was misplaced and I wish I could say how I’m appreciated I am for her to look after me during my middle school years.

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Anime con? No. Comic con? No. Home show con? Yes. Just got back from a housing/home convention and ordered two knives a “chef knife” and a “meat cleaver” since I seriously need one for a very good price. It’s made with German steel with a lifetime warranty both for $220!! Original price for two was $472. It was discounted for the convention event. Once I get it in, I will show it. But this is what the cleaver looks like from the con. it’s super sharp and the smoothest knife I have ever worked with so far.

Depends on the games and its play styles. In general I'm more of the stealthy DPS type of player. I'm always cautions while playing so I depend on stealth and far range attacks to weaken my enemies first. Once they're dying then I go to short range to finish it. If there's no far range weapons for me to use, I focus on power/defense. I'm never a fan as being the healers or focusing on that field, it's not my type. As for games that's not RPG, I played characters that are easy to use or the underdog. That way I could learn to use them more effectively while not trying to focus on how to control them if they are too difficult to use.

Things in life that I enjoy are being near the ocean or just the thought of the sea itself. I love everything about the marine life and one day I want to retired near the beach. So I can wake up every morning to the smell of the sea and sand, watching the sun raise with a nice cup of coffee. I'd spend my day throughout at the beach. Then when the night falls,I'd watch the sunset, staring at the moon and the starry sky reflecting on the sea. I also enjoy being around with children, they're like the center of my happiness every time I'm around them. Just making them smile and happy warms my 'cold hearten soul' XD. It's fun to make them laugh and play along with them on their imaginations. I also do get pretty 'protective' too but I guess that just my "parental" instinct. Even though I'm not even one yet. I just love kids and this may sound weird but, I believe they're the one that's keeping me sane. Hell, if anyone need a babysitter I'm up for it.

Well…sign my mom told me that my dad apologized for everything..which I wasn’t expecting that from him at all, it was unlikely of him to. And well my dad and I aren’t really close and been having complications… so.. yeah I don’t really know I feel about that. Me trying to be a good son but never could to the fullest.. because dad is just being yeah idk. Maybe this may be a little progress. So I’m feeling …. Awkward? If that’s a right term to describe this situation.

I haven't seen any good movie lately since The Batman movie but- 1. Chip n' Dale Ranger Rescue 5/10= Love the whole concepts but...plot could've been better. Nothing much to expect anyways. 2. Pinocchio 2022 5/10= The plot is rushed could've been better if it wasn't and the story transition is kinda forced. Sad to see my favorite Disney classic didn't capture the same charm. Either my expectation were too high or maybe I'm have grown too old and boring to enjoy Pinocchio anymore (hope not). Or it's just another failed live-action Disney Adaptation. I was sad they didn't put my favorite song, "let your conscience be your guide". 3. Sonic 2: 6.5/10= ehh it was great in the beginning till they get to the wedding part. That whole part was bad and not needed at all. Last, the whole parenting and family with Sonic is seriously cringe and cramping Sonic as the character style. Not that he wasn't cool in the first one either as the original but this is just bad-corny. And Jim Carrey did it again with carrying the movie. But still love Tails. I did watched the short and I actually love that more than the movie. 4. Thor Love and Thunder 7/10= yet another movie with a plot that just zoom straight to the end. But I actually enjoy it more than the last three movie I watched. The ending is so heartwarming though and I actually love the ending despite of being bittersweet. But it was indeed a good and cute ending. I just noticed Thor is the only movie that always kill off their characters for his every movies....

Where to start? I guess you could say I wasn't quite sure what I really wanted to do- my childhood dream was nothing more than just me fantasizing and interests. But I know one thing that has always been clear to me, and that is I wanted to do something to help others. Such ideal, got me lost several time since as simple as it sound- it's not. The questions like these kept me doubting myself like; "What make you think working at a hospital or crime is the best place or could actually help anyone? Since there are many other ways to do it. than working there?", "Are you really going to be happy working there?", why would you want to work there beside helping people?" I begun to think these questions being asked was because they think I'm just here for the money thanks to most the images being ruined by shitheads in the health/law field these days. I yearned to serve and help others but the more I reach for it the more I feel how delusional and fake it has become. My actions doesn't fit the bill due to my anger and frustration-thus believing I'm not worthy anymore to hold that ideal. On top of that, there's rude people on the other hand and people in the society and shit that can drive you crazy to the point of me thinking, "fuck this humanity". So in the end, I have decided to settle on a so-called "career" with this thought "making money" with a descent job who paid enough just to get through the day, nothing else. It's a sad reality for me to accept but that's basically my whole progress on "how did I settle on a 'career'". I guess you could that- "At least I'm not as sad as I used to be-- That's my life, nothing is sacred. I don't keep friends, I keep acquainted, I'm not a prophet, But I'm here to profit."

It will go for the rest of the month! So September 30th.