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hm no one ever ask me that- I had grown tired and dreaded everyday with no motivations, but I did have a little of a "wake-up" call. Since I have been working (of course I did some schoolings too) since the start of High school till now, I never give a chance to think of other things in life beside working. Time passed so fast that I often forget the most important things around me and so now I'm trying to keep that mindset often and tried to not take things for granted despite of how dreadful my life is sometime.

If I remembered I think have around about 5 jobs in total. My very first job back at high school was working at a office job for a car seller company. Been stuck there for 3 years of high school. All I did was entering numbers in and paper filings. Office job is such a bored. Then at my senior year I worked as a mailman for a university while doing some small office work in between. Then adulthood hits and I used to worked in Sprout at the Deli (the most hellish job for me). Around 2018 I got my CNA license and worked at two jobs as a CNA and as a salesman for Costco. 2020 I stopped working as a CNA due to the COVID-19 because I don't want to risk working there due to a large family. 2021, I move on working as a florist while still keeping my salesman's job. I quit the florist job and here am I still stuck as a salesman, promoting whatever shit Costco wants me to promote for their store. Honestly, I do missed working as a CNA because it's nice to help people in needs rather than being suck here promoting for capitalisms to flourish-but I do need the money and unfortunately my current job pays me better. Ironically, when I was working as CNA, I worked around doctors and nurses who only here for money and less for the patients and I hated it. I remembered seeing how most of the nurse treated their patients poorly due to that mindset. Only see patients as cash cow. I asked one nurse why she choose to be a nurse practitioner. She said because it pays her better than being a nurse- needed the money- "Oh I see". Most of the answer I asked for other co-workers and nurse students are all the same....I thought to myself back then that there's no way I want to work around with these kind of people!... but here I am now...grinding for money. As everyone already knows this, What I learned throughout all my work experiences Can I retire already?

I want to rise the moon rather then the sun and then making sure the moon stayed. LET THERE BE DARKNESS!

Congs on winning 50/50 for Kokomi! I love her gameplay since it's so pretty and her cute little sea creatures. I have been only listening in Japanese dub didn't know she have southern accent, but I did tried to get Sara and finally got her after 3rd pull. I've been meaning to get her since her first release but I don't want to waste my pity. were you able to get sara? ahhh okay I see i might've missed that part.. So basically these harbingers are compatible to the void power. I think Tsaritsa knew delusions has flaws and wanted to achieve something more natural like the light to fight off Celestria and since Tsaritsa is a sister of Celestria, the Light power belongs to Celestria. I might be wrong but that's just my theory.

I mean as long they're not hurting themselves or others or not creating odd or poor unhealthy habits that may affects them and their loves one, than I won't mind it. Hell sometime I do feel my past life could've been a fish or sea creatures, giving how I'm so drawn to the sea and always prefer spending time in the water more than land. Alas, no grills or fins so a boat or a small pool is the best I got.

I mean there's some casual players who pulls and then end up getting two promo five stars on their first lucky pull, getting a C1 for free. Maaan I would give all my luck up just to see that happen to me one day... Isn't delusions are artificial though? I thought it's was made by Tsaritsa herself.

I'm gonna discussion a political matter here please excuse me.

I gave up looking for a purpose since I don't think there's no need to be chasing after something that is invisible. Instead I changed my mindset to rather coming up a purpose for myself, I just not take life for granted and go with the flow. And hope that it will give out a positive impact.

I used to daydream a lot, now for some reason all I can think about is my current life, what I should be doing, when is work gonna be over, why am I stuck in my job, should I work more?, money, things like that. It's like my brain lost the motives to be creative. I think it more like "worrying' than 'daydreaming' now.

I don't mind going around and traveling since I played open world games before-but it's something about it in Enkanomiya that kinda drain the hell out of me. It could the puzzle or the area itself. I did mentioned I like Enknnomiya...but after having to do the quest here and there to unlock the boss- it's like almost everywhere looks the same-just rocks and more rocks. It kinda kills it for me. But Riki, since you mentioned it's more straightforward, I might give it another chance- if only it wasn't event though then I wouldn't feel the pressure trying to grind 6+ hours to finish it, now that I prob have like about two more weeks left if I start now? Also goat-kun and riki, speaking of story- how was the story so far? is it connected to the main story especially with the abyss watchers or with the khaenri'ah in any way? I need to see if my time on this event won't be vain if the story isn't worth exploring-despite of earning primos, since in my case story > primos. You know there's a bunch of talks about Dain might have a whole different element outside the main 7 element. He might not have a version, but people say he might have something else like dark. It may sound a bit far fetch but after seeing this here, I have no doubt Genshin is gonna introduce us a whole different element aside the main 7. That means a little more hope for Dain wanters to want him to be playable. Moreover seeing more elements and characters with different element out of the 7 would be interesting! Do you guys think that the light element could've been Celestria? (cough cough not making a mlp references here. I don't understand why is that every time a new electro characters are being introduced, these people go about saying they're aren't strong as Fishl?? They made it sounds like she like the most powerful 4* electro that ever existed but in reality, they're just annoying fishl's simp. I saw comments like that and I don't get it why whalers goes around peaching that their precious baby girl is far more powerful when it come to comparing to either Yae or Raiden. I get the feeling these whalers just like to flex too. saying "oh spending over $1000 to unlock 5* C is no big deal at all" while trying to sound modest in from of us casual player- " it's not worth it anyways because C6 4* is sTrOnGer". It's like trying to not make us casual player feel bad but while flexing at the same time. I beleive they did the same thing with Noelle and Itto. saying she's better than him at C6. Like bruh, EVERYONE by now have at least almost every 4* at C6. it's nothing special anymore. Wait are you referring to real people friends? and yeah agreed-hell here I'm still waiting for any more fatui contents and anything new about that new Harbinger..I keep being told that he's coming in the upcoming story for 2.4-2.5. Well we're done with 2.4 and halfway 2.5, where is he? I need to stop listening to twitter

If that was the case then people won't see me as weirdo singing and dancing outta the blue. The best part is that strangers will come and join you as your personal chord singers and background dancers. It's like living in a spotlight for a moment.

They don't tell me specifically, all they said was that my dad met my mom and fall for her instantly and proposed to her after like 5 month or 3 month of dating-and here we are now. Ehhhhhhhh.... I mean, not trying to bad mouth my parents or anything or degrading their relationship and my existent...buuuut... maybe jumping the gun that fast isn't the best idea in the long run. I love my parents and all but they can be very dysfunctional sometime-

I'm pretty sure that his life is far more interesting than mine.

we're gonna be one huge family eventually right?

I mean, first thing first I gonna need to find a soulmate. Their beliefs background is the least of my worries.

nskile ahh close enough

Battle arena

nah, i wish though where do you want to retire?

not really. TPAM prefer walking or biking.

quietly

arent we're already sibling? de ja vu

used to Own a skateboard?

Speed runner

merman

slap yourself in the face Doc, how can I stop overthinking so much?