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  1. We will b all dead by the time we reach our goal haha 514,335
  2. I can see myself completing my real estate program. it would be considered as a good luck to start my real estate program on Chinese’s new year feb 10th. I’ve marked my calendar as a start of new year with something to look forward to. Hopefully I will do well and earn my license this year. Since, I’m very eager to start my career as a realtor. It’s like starting a whole new chapter of my life.
  3. I do want to make a list of my songs rank so far! 1. “Stayed Gone” God, Vox’s voice melt my heart, and his character… my man crush is kicking in again. But damn he’s kinda hot okay? 2. “Whatever it takes”- The duet, Zestial’s voice and the drama and the passion in that song. It’s like listening to a strong opera performance in a broadway theater. 3.”Respectfuless”- Carmilla just keeps slaying in musical. 4. “Hell is forever”- love, love the 80’s intake on the rock music. 5. “Happy day in hell”- who doesn’t like a good o’ classic board-way music? 6. “Poison”- Descent but the song is good and despite how upbeat it sounded you can definitely hear the pain from the lyrics. 7. “Loser Baby”- Not really a fan as much, the music could use a little more swing. 8. “It’s start with a sorry”- not feeling it. But I feel so happy for Sir Pents being accepted despite what he had done in the past, it’s so touching.
  4. Mafia is reminder of his past. He was a gangster not a pole dancer to begin with. Him being a performer was his escape. I don’t know how the contract started off as but Angel knows what kind of a performer he wanted to be otherwise he wouldn’t agree to the contract. But he never ask to become a sex toy symbol. And I won’t have people like yourself disrespecting these pole dancers who actually see it as a form of art and dance instead of like a sin. Those who tries to change its view and use it to express themselves through it. but the world which is no different from hell itself (anyway) could only see it as sex and exploit it. My college ran a pole dancing club and it changed my view on it and grow to appreciate it on a different level. You may think it sounds native, but these people tries to see things differently the good in the bad, so they can feel less bad about themselves. So try do a little more research. Otherwise, we’re done here.
  5. It was definitely literature, social studies (I was top in my class, my proudest academic moment), science, P.E, music and art classes. College: I think my only enjoyment subjects were organic and analytical chemistry, Medieval History (I remembered I almost wrote a short documentary novel when I gave my professor a 10 pages paper essay instead of 5 bless his heart for reading though all of it), World at Wars, Fundamentals of Literature, Art history(it’s so amazing to learn about its history, about the sculptures, the architectures, and how the materials are being used and how arts evolve over time)and lastly, script writing.
  6. My last dream was yet again a strange but an interesting one. For the first time ever, the dream was taken during the Medieval time. As a pauper, I was taken to a castle to be trained to be a squire. Although there were certain duties to be taken before I could earn my spot as one. Which was helping around the castle and cleaning. I was a diligent worker in helping around the castle. The kingdom was only ruled by a Queen and her daughter. I was 14 and the princess was 18. I fell in love with the princess and wanted to be with her. One night I snuck up to the Queen and the Princess’s private room and when I got there, the Princess was a sleep. She definitely looked like a sleeping beauty. The room was just as beautiful as she is. The ceiling doesn’t have a roof, as it was covered in leaves instead. It was like walking in a magical garden of Greece. The room was so relaxing so I sat on the floor across where the princess was sleeping peacefully. I can feel my body relaxing as I just realized that I haven’t gotten a break since I have been so focused on working hard so that I could worthy enough to be a squire. I fell asleep and my dream self begin to dream. It was a dream within a dream. My dream self dreamt about going through a timeskips of his life as well as the next life and so forth. I don’t remember these events specifically but it was a bit chaotic. The last dream which I actually do remember, was my ‘dream-self’s” dream was taken in during WW2. I was standing on the sidewalk, young and watching the German soldiers marching. It felt like being in a movie, I was mesmerized, in awe. Of all the dreams I dreamed about wars, this moment felt like a good memory to my dream self. My dream-self last thought, before he woke up was “one day I will be one of them.” My dream self finally woke up and I was back in the room. I felt a little disoriented but before I could get myself up, I heard the Queen coming. The room has two hallways leading to two exits. The Queen was coming from the right, so I quickly got up and ran to the left to avoid her seeing me. Since if I was caught, it would cost my chance of becoming a squire or worse. I can hear the Queen coming in as I run. She knows someone was in the room since she can hear my footsteps running down the hallway. But luckily the room was kinda dark so she couldn't see it was me. I quickly reach the door and open it. Unfortunately for me there were guards standing by and I closed the door back. I saw a closet on my left side and before I could reach it to hide, the Queen already caught up to me and cornered me. My heart literally sank and I could find myself unable to breathe. It caught me off guard that I fell down backwards. I push myself against the wall in fear. Her wrath was overwhelming and no word to express how mad she looked. But I can remember how furious she was by judging how her face glowed red. She was shouting and insulting something at me but I couldn’t make out what she was saying.But all I remember was her saying something like “you little bastard”. She grabbed me by my ear and pulled me up and dragged me to the bathroom and began to shout at me again. She took out a stick and told me if I want to keep my position I mustn’t cry whenever she lands a hit on me. I nod in agreement. She raises her stick at me and begins to strike me hard several times. The pain was definitely real as I can actually feel it coursing through my whole body, it felt like a burning stinger in each hit. She was grabbing me by my hair as she continued to hit. I tried my best not to cry, and fortunately I did succeed in holding back my cries. After that, she grabbed me up and tossed me out to the guards. She was going to throw me to the dungeon for a week without food and water as my punishment. I woke up afterward. But I froze for a moment as that dream was very traumatic for me
  7. True, to avoid two series crossover complex, but I’m just saying if Angel dust still wants to be a performer without being a porn star and keeping his aesthetic, then pole dancing doesn’t have to view as a bad sexual way. If it’s presented correctly.
  8. My little sister complimented my make up saying it looks good on me, so that could make any guy happy hearing that.
  9. I think if Angel ever cut deals with Val, I would rather like to see him work with Ozzie instead. At least Ozzie treats his performers a lot more respect and allowing them to express their talents and showmanship. Which it’s what Angel wanted initially. I think this route would open up to a positive side towards pole dancing. Pole dancing always gets misinterpreted when it actually a form of art of both beauty and strength. Which I think that what Angel would’ve also wanted.
  10. The show is great and I do love have they made the overlord councilors actually cares for their people instead being evil overlord stereotypes. The heaven part I agreed with @Evil Pink One, it was a huge disappointment. They shouldn't do copy and paste of Hell cliche, but instead make them evil good. That’s a real thing. Angel dust is still my favorite though! Fuck Val.
  11. I don’t really care much for bucket list nor did I made one.. but if I could publish one of my writing work, that would be something I wanted before I kick the bucket.
  12. I like to draw, write, practicing my guitar, and reading, mostly on history and old literature novel.
  13. I’m confident in all my work. I sometimes like to dream about becoming a professional artist or writer. But after my experiences with college classes they always expects whatever is the trendiest style as art, in today’s norm. Same goes for writing... “Rock and roll, I gave you all the best years of my life All the dreamy sunny Sundays, all the moon-lit summer nights I was so busy in the back room writin' love songs to you While you were changin' your direction and you never even knew That I was always, just one step behind you“ It’s like the world of arts and writing, they want something realistic and then expects you to follow it. You practiced and create and now they want something else and so forth. I’m a traditionalist and often prefer my own style and stick with it.. but then on the other hand, when someone else did the similar intake like mine in their own work and got recognized for it. I’m like, “ummm?” So… yeah fuck the art/writing industries.
  14. Hm, I always wanted to go to a tailor and have my own custom suit. It’s hard to find one of my liking especially ones that looks more towards military-looks, stylish, and unique. At the same time, I don’t want to look too flashy formal and military, just something more where I could wear anywhere at anytime while looking fairly confidant and direct.
  15. Having this critical part of my feelings being sorted out and understanding where it’s coming from, has really shine some lights for me. I’m still have this feeling of strange impulsiveness or restlessness lingering about, but I’m trying to keep it under control by finally getting back to writing a book that I have been meaning to start. Not sure if that would make me “happy”, but it does feel really good at the moment to me. I was told it will help me, so we will see.
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