Lucky Bells

Is something wrong, Lucky?

Well, I wouldn't necessarily say I HAVE depression, just my boyfriend got into a car accident on his way down to visit me and even though he's ok, I can't help but feel...I don't know what it is. I just feel...extremely depressed and concerned and lonely and I can't pull myself out of it. I guess it's just me worried about him and plus, I can't help but feel that it's all my fault. If he wasn't driving 12-14 hours to come see me this never would have happened. The only thing that would help me would be to see him right now...as corny as that sounds.  But I'm being absolute serious.

Heh, I guess I just never cared quite THIS much about a person in my life. 

Sorry about that, I guess I just needed to vent. 

That to me sounds more like some sadness combined with tons of worry and a sprinkling of (not deserved) regret. Funny thing, when one of my like..two offline friends was taking me to a store, we hit a deer (who apparently was fine afterwards) and let's say that his car didn't take kindly to it. Wasn't totaled but definitely damaged in different ways. I blamed myself for that, because he was taking me specifically to this store. Really though, that kind of blame is baseless and extremely harsh and I am someone that is incredibly harsh on himself. You cannot blame yourself for out of nowhere poor circumstance.

As long as he is well, that is what matters in that situation, because if he is well, then you have him regardless of a troubling moment. I am totally understanding of having such worry though, I also have crippling anxiety so, Imma mixing pot of relating in this scenario. XD