Califorum

I would rather die, than live as I am not. 

Only a dead fish goes with the flow.

Today was a good day. Shortened classes despite my headaches, and I managed to talk to a girl in my study hall, if for a short while. The pep rally thing was really fun, I never felt so nationalistic in my entire life.

Happy birthday, my dear friend

In my german class we were doing a game where we passed a ball around or something and one of my friends threw the ball, accidentally hitting my balls and I didn't flinch or make a sound, and Emma, one of my crushes seemed to be filming or taking pictures of me. I have a feeling she was sharing it with others, which is something I will absolutely not accept.

I did not have a good day, if she does this again, I will call her out infront of the class.

My new flashlight came today, my square one. It's a Bushnell T300L HD flashlight. A bit smaller than expected but it is pretty hefty in build quality, I like how it has a red light around it for one of the buttons, and is alot brighter than I thought it would be. It's amazing.

Still around?

I had a dream where my grandma owned this log house cabin and people were remodeling it, Cali (One of my crushes) was there and so was I. My high school's 'dean of students' person was there too, sort of telling people the rules and stuff, Cali got onto this sort of like saw thing and cut the wood above her by moving back and forth in the air.

In another dream there was some business man dreaming about his love, who was somewhat cold and blunt, she had black hair, and as he was thinking about her it sort of faded to a scene where he was shaving with a business suit on, with intentions of taking over the company some day.

In another part of these dreams there was this alien who resembled a jellyfish, but with bones who walked instead of swimming. Jonathan Archer, the captain of the NX-01 enterprise in the 2000's star trek show time traveled somehow and the alien experimented upon him, and he died where another alien tried to find evidence of his time traveling.

I had a dream where basically I was in some sort of store with some other people. The radiation levels in this place were high but everything was pristine and all perfect, I looked at the washing machines before one of the people said to me nothing here was as it seemed and made of different elements than it should have been made of. We eventually ran out of the store, and in the distance there was a 'disc earth' island, with a map of the world but flat, and as island. There was an angel who flew over us, and on that island, in the center of it was a massive tree with fruits which provided for the people who lived there, who were all naked, there was no fighting over the fruit as everyone got what they wanted.

In another dream I was floating in a dark void. I realized I was dreaming and tried to control the dream to be able to walk around my school but that didn't work, and I looked up and there was this white light of sorts, almost like a cutout vaguely shaped like an angel who berated me in a sing-song sort of voice, and when I got up in this dream, music was playing out of my veins in my left leg and I went to show my parents but the music ended before they could notice and I told them about what had happened.

In another dream there was a thing called 'DNA displacement' which would be an event where you would end up in different dimensions based on your DNA, and to get back you had to climb to the top of a light pole and lick the stickers on it. I climbed up the light pole which was in my yard, up the ladder, up 480 feet to the top. I was so scared of how high I was, but I began to lick the light and the dream ended.

In my 4th dream my parents had installed a tireswing underneath a light pole, one that actually exists in real life and I was concerned whether or not it could hold weight.

I had a dream where France had colonized northern Africa at some point, before allowing them to go independent when they wanted it. They later founded something called 'The Commonwealth', much like the British Commonwealth, letting their colonies free and independent, and would eventually become a beacon for democracy across the entire world.

France fully became a democratic nation earlier on, and allowed it's colonies to be free without bloodshed, the colonies agreed to be in this Commonwealth, shared values, culture and language.

21/09/2018

I had a dream, thousands of years ago the world was different. Humanity didn't really have technology of any kind, and the planet itself was different, there were these plants with long leaves, sticky like sap that stuck to other plants, with small spike like formations along their leaves that fed upon other plants. Humanity was undeveloped until a flying truck, flown by aliens came to Earth and humanity reverse engineered it to suit their interests. In another part of this dream there was this woman responsible for the extinction of humanity, and she killed some god.

There was another dream where there was some sort of natural disaster and humanity fled to underground or something, leaving the above ground world to ruin, in one place there was this vintage motor that kept air flowing to the underground complex. I saw ruined houses and buildings everywhere, cars too. 

In time there is no present, the past is written like a book which is already done. The future comes when you realize it. It's odd, when I am not thinking about time, I just do life...like life, like a machine almost, and then when I think of time something suddenly hits me, the present doesn't exist.