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Changed my profle.
As a symbolic embracing of this past as part of my identity, no longer rejecting it, instead, accepting it. While I have before, I've never said that verbally so this is the confirmation of that. And putting the unique 'Starforce' (part of the 'future' self) into combination with one of my oldest, and most common alias. I can feel memories flowing through me of all the battles I've faced, the people I've wronged, and those who have wronged me. I feel no shame or guilt for what I did anymore, or at least not the extent I did. It is how it happened. Why be guilty? Why feel the need to change it? As this is the way it happened, and that is the way it did so why not embrace that?
Why be guilty, for in those moments, I did what I thought was best. In future contexts, it was wrong. But in the contexts of that day and age and considering my maturity level...it could have been worse. I was never an evil or immoral person, I was just misguided and more cringy. Hatred, regret, and guilt doesn't do anything to change what happened. It only keeps you down, like a chained eagle or a horse tied to a post. It has the thought, will but not the actual ability to go back and change it. Ultimately, we as humans can only change our own future. While I did not do actions I am proud of, no matter what I have never bullied or belittled people in school at least in the manner others did. I never hurt anyone physically, I never was cruel, or immoral.
I also realize that now, I shouldn't judge other people for their preferences as they all have struggles and pains just like we do. I shouldn't judge other people for their cringe when I have my moments too. My parents believe that my time away from in person school had ruined me, but that is not the case, it has enlightened me because it made me realize how little high school matters and how little things can matter in the grand scheme. I have no sentimentality to my high school at all for what they've done, but I have accepted it. As to deny the reality of our situations, it only causes us greater pain.
It's time to embrace the past, and who I am.- Show previous comments 7 more
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@Kujamih
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@Kujamih
Russian feel? That is fascinating.
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