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  1. Yep, I've been there. I know what you mean. Sometimes I feel completely useless and that the world would be better off with me, but the people around here really help me to get rid of that feeling. I know what you were referring to when you said the "unspeakable act", so I'll just throw my two cents in and say try to talk to someone who you can trust about what issues you are having. That seems to help me the most when I feel like I just want to be dead.

    Even though I've been busy lately, my DMs are always open here and on Discord.

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  2. 9 hours ago, Phosphor said:

    I feel ya bro. I too, am susceptible to burn out. It's kinda the reason why I go thru cycles with my hobbies and such. I'll take a break, sometimes a long break, but I always come back to it refreshed. A nice break and some additional hobbies may help you reorganize internally. 

    As far as the school work goes. Crack those knuckles and get to it!  :grin:

     

    Maybe it might be time to take a break soon. I still have to trudge through MCM though, I can't quit on that yet. About experiencing burnout though. Except to see less of me during the first few months of the new year. Reason being is because I will be trudging through a 90 hour internship and 5 classes along with part-time work. I'll have my hands full quite a bit!

    8 hours ago, Twilight Luna said:

    Maybe you're going through a 'fuck it' phase. Most of us have gone through it where nothing interests us anymore like playing video games, reading, or enjoying other hobbies. There's nothing wrong with exploring new things. Hell, that's how I started watching the show in the first place. As long as you don't over do it and get obsessed with it, you'll be fine. I'm going through a phase myself with my writing. I've been working on the same story since April of this year and I'm only half way through chapter 3. For some reason, I can't seem to finish this latest chapter. I sit down to write it out and I get easily distracted by other things.

    Does being part of the sectional staff still make you happy? Maybe it's time to step back from it for a while or retire from it. From what I've seen, you've done a great job with it. If you do decide to step back and take time off, we will understand and support you. The same goes if you decide to walk away completely. We hope that you don't do that but we'll understand. :kindness:

    A "fuck it" phase? Yeah, I could see that honestly. I've been trying to keep myself from completely saying "fuck it" to everything but it gets harder and harder as time goes on. About leaving staff... I don't plan on doing so just yet. I don't want to hastily make the decision and regret it later on.

    8 hours ago, Randimaxis said:

    I would like to say something on this subject, if I may?

    Variety is the spice of Life; when our surroundings & personal trappings become commonplace, we miss that spice.  Things feel bland, underwhelming, or perhaps even cross into boredom... or, it just doesn't feel like you're accomplishing anything new.  Stagnancy leads to wasteful thinking and lazy, half-hearted attempts to continue to relate through the same, routine ways you once did.  Or even in the case of being paralyzed with fear of the Big Fail, it just keeps you from not only enjoying yourself... but it also becomes apparent to others who are astute enough to see it in your post quality, your attitude towards the fandom, or even as simple as just feeling as though you've no choice but to slog along, out of habit more than any sense of true motivation.

    We refer to that in a plethora of ways: ennui, The Nothing, anti-existence, meh, Greyface... the list goes on and on, no doubt compiled by someone suffering from such.

    But... what do we DO about it?  How do we find that spark again, that bright and shining star that will elevate us back to where we once belonged?

    Well... you won't; stop trying.

    You see, the problem is that folks fall into the "trap" of making a beeline for familiarity, for things they'll understand as soon as they see it - and there's essentially nothing wrong with that, as it's human nature to want to go with what we know... but in the long run, all we're doing is re-re-re-re-REhashing the same things, and expecting a different result each time... but not getting one.

    "Have I ever told you the definition of INSANITY?"

    I'm no expert on pulling-thyself-from-Funkville, but I've learned a few tricks during my time on the dirtball... and the biggest one I advise is to look into ways you HAVEN'T done things before - not just on the forums, but in Real Life, too.  Sometimes, we get so bogged down with the simple act of LIVING, we forget to go out and LIVE.

    So... time for the shake up.

    Fail.  Make mistakes.  Take risks.  Look for things that terrify or anger you... and investigate them.  Write out a math paper's answers in WORDS and not numbers.  BE afraid of changes... but don't allow it to stop you from making any.  

    Sometimes, all we really need is a change of pace to pull us back into our own head, instead of floating above ourselves in that out-of-body sense of dis-attachment to our everyday lives.  Even if you try something and fail at it, remember that you TRIED something new... and learned a thing or two from it, I'll bet.

    Variety IS the spice of Life... and sometimes, we need to go out & grab some new spices from the shelves of Life's ExperienceMart. 

    Others will say 'don't fear the unknown'; I say, "fear the unknown... but don't forget to be excited about it, too."  :flutterhat: 

    Wow, this is a really well thought out post. It was a treat to read through. Now, to force myself to make mistakes and fail? I haven't thought of that from that perspective. I've been so paralyzed by the notion of failing that I haven't seen the future of what failing does. I guess what you mean is that you keep on failing until you succeed, right?

    About getting stuck in my own ways though... that's easier said than done. I have a habit of getting back into my habits, either they be good or bad overtime.

    8 hours ago, Rikifive said:

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    That should solve the problem. :love:

     


    That happens Taze. That's the magic of motivation and occasional lack of it, whether caused by mistakes, time, having worse days or simply other problems haunting you. Many people struggle with that, mostly ones, who care about something more than the others. Sadly it is difficult to get it back afterwards. Depending on what caused that motivation drop, there are different ways to find it back, there's no perfect solution, that would always work. Sometimes it comes back on its own, with time, so that makes taking a break a viable solution in some cases. Not that I suggest you leaving! NU! :derp:

    You mentioned feeling less motivated in general - hobbies, being here - to me it seems like something in real life simply bothers you. Oh, real life problems can heavily discourage you from being productive and make it harder to focus on something that you used to enjoy. :twi:

    Well, something motivating I could say is, that you're still one of the staffers I see most often, compared to few others. dfEG13d.png Shame on them, jk, jk! :D;) And we all make mistakes - that just happens. It is extremely demotivating when making one, that's true, but the truth is, that we all embarrass ourselves once in a while. ^_^ With time it gets better. :P 

     

    In any case, I hope things will get better for you. :fluttershy:

     

    Ok, riki. You made me giggle with the first picture. I commend you on that.

    I do try my best when it comes to be active here since I don't want to end up like most of other staffers who don't show up at all. I love the idea of being close with the community and not being high up on a pedestal just because I'm part of the staff team. I feel that staff should serve the community, not have the community serve the staff. It takes a specific mindset in my opinion to do that.

    On motivation, time will just have to tell me when I'm motivated again. I can't exactly force myself to be motivated, but I guess a break from the forums wouldn't hurt to try either in the future.

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  3. 1 hour ago, Tacodidra said:

    If you're not motivated to visit the forums, it's better not to force yourself to. I'd of course like you to be here often... but if you're not enjoying the forums, maybe it's better to take a short break or something to possibly regain that enthusiasm. I remember you said once you were close to burning out on the forums – could this be the case right now too? Thinking back to how active you were at one point, I don't think that's really surprising – I've never quite been that active myself, but at the times when I was at my own peak in activity, I had to have a couple of less active days after that to avoid burning out! And exploring different hobbies is always a good thing – focusing on just one thing can get pretty boring, which I'm saying from experience... As for staff duties, I can't say I know everything about it (or even close to it), but based on what I've seen, I think you've done a good job as a sectional!

    And as for being demotivated, I can say you're not alone in this regard either. The same has been the case with me for a while – not really with the forums (except sometimes, but more often than before) but in general. I hope you feel better soon, my friend! :kindness:

    For me, the demotivation comes from me being scared to chase when I should. It's the fear of failing that has made me apathetic to even try at all. Yes, I shouldn't be doing this but it's part of my personality to put things off that I don't enjoy at that moment. Even if putting it off would be a dire mistake.

    52 minutes ago, Celtore said:

    I don't think the right solution is to ignore the problem, the problem will just return later. From the sounds of things, it doesn't seem like your problem stems from the forums itself or your studies though; it seems like there could be some kind of internal struggle behind your demotivation. I'm not a psychologist, but I would make an attempt at identifying the problem, figuring out why you feel the way you do. It could just be burnout you're experiencing between the forums and your studies, or it could be something more.

    I've always been told to go see a psychologist about my problems but I'm just hesitant to so. I've battled depression and anxiety mostly on my own for most of my life. I've been an outcast when I was a kid and only recently have I taken socializing into consideration. I still feel that I'm better on my own then to be drugged by a psychologist.

    23 minutes ago, The Recherche said:

    You too, hm? Well, I'm not qualified to give you advice on whether or not to stay on the Forums, as that is something I'm still conflicted on... but I can offer a smidgen of indirectly related advice, regarding your recent apathetic phase.

    If I am to be completely honest with myself, the sole reason I return to the Forums time and time again is due to nostalgia. I reminisce about the times when I and a few other members conquered the Forum Games, the times when I was introduced to the Staff, the times when many since-departed members were active, the times when the WPCC Lounge was a modest sub-group... you understand what I am saying. Though those times were certainly incredibly enjoyable, deep down... I know none of these experiences will be recreated.

    One aspect of modern culture I tend to dislike is how much of a tar pit nostalgia has become. No matter where you look, mainstream media is either utilizing a decade(+) old franchise, or is paying homage to it it some capacity. While this isn't inherently a bad thing, I dislike how it makes us far too comfortable and reliant on the Status Quo. Yes, some franchises have survived this long for a reason... but I do wish modern culture was more welcoming of new properties and ideas. Either way, the keyword in this situation is comfort. Though we are naturally inclined to seek it and withdraw into it... comfort is more harrowing than we may like to admit. Think back to the most exhilarating or incredible points in your life... and tell me how many of them were performed within your comfort zone. Chances are, there will be few, if any at all.

    What am I trying to say in this instance? If your experience mirrors mine at all, then the key appeal of MLPF was how new and unfamiliar it was. The members, the games, the trends... the overall community was utterly unprecedented to me, as it may have been for you. In this instance, the overall appeal and novelty tapered off once we settled in. In other words... MLPF is now mundane.

    In summary, comfort is gratifying, but not fulfilling. If the main reason we return to the Forums is due to a longing for past experiences... the unfortunate truth is that we are chasing what is behind us, in a forward moving life.

    In the end, this is ultimately your choice. Sometimes boredom can be worse than pain, so if you feel as though you need to take a break from the Forums, if not outright depart... then it may be for the best. I would certainly recommend the former, considering the fact that you have many friends and acquaintances here... but if you absolutely must depart, then we will understand. :rarity:

    Should I depart? I've thoughts about it but I really don't think I want to yet. I still enjoy coming here like I've said since this community is one of the only places I willingly socialize online. Should I take a break? Possibly, not until MCM is done though, I've committed myself to this event and I should see it all the way through. It would be unfair to the others on the event if I were to drop off the face of the earth for a month or two.

    I do agree on some point that I come here for nostalgia but that's not the only thing keeping me here. What keeps me here is the people I talk to. People like @Tacodidra to name one great example. If all the members I actually care about left, then I would have little to no reason to stay around anymore. I'm not exactly at the phase where I want to just depart from the forums.

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  4. Just now, Once In A Blue Moon said:

    Unfortunately I was referring to administration in the sense of paperwork - dot the i and cross the t, then do it again for form 2-B. Systems admin is a bit outside my area of expertise.

    I'm fairly certain that there are people who work in system admin here though; a status post or blog asking about it might turn up something.

    Ah, when you said admin I thought you were referring to System admins. My bad then.

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  5. 2 hours ago, Rikifive said:

    I perfectly know what you mean, I've been there. You're supposed to know what is where, but things actually aren't that obvious or simple to achieve, like others say. I do have a job, but I'd love to change it in the future - change to something, where my work actually would be appreciated. It's hard to find a good job, so be prepared for potential disappointment. :P Either way, I believe in you Taze and hope, that you'll find something you'll enjoy. I wish you all the best. :fluttershy:

    As for the forums - that's understandable. :fluttershy: Real life always has something to keep us busy and it's absolutely fine if you have other hobbies you'd like to spend time on as well. I have too many hobbies, so I can imagine how it goes. :D Either way, you're one of the most active users here ~ I see you everyday, so that's more than enough! ;) 

    Take your time and balance things, so that you can enjoy all of them. :darling:

    Thanks, riki! I know I can count on you to make me feel better. A little dose of reality is something I need every now and then to be fair. Sure, everything may not go according to plan at first but if I work on it, I can achieve success!

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  6. 5 hours ago, Rixton said:

    This may not help you feel better, but I  was without a job almost a year after I graduated, and my country is much-much not as that high category than yours, so you should not worry too much about it, you now need to focus on finishing your studies. I did not have any idea where to go to work at that time.
    Speaking about the burnout stuff, I hope it is just an emotional valley, not the beginning of your leave from the fandom.
     

    I guess only time can tell what I want to do and how I do it. I'm apprehensive about a lot of things so that probably doesn't help me too much I would think.

    5 hours ago, Sp00kEater said:

    You know, in some respects, I feel the exact same way you do, although maybe not to as great extent as you do. Anxiety has been a constant problem of mine, my entire life. I too, have no clue what the fuck I'm going to do after I graduate. I have no passion for what I'm studying, hell, before I even started college, I was ready to enroll in Recruit Training for the Royal Marines, that was my plan. But alas, I chose instead to study something in STEM, because I was completely aimless. I really shouldn't have, looking back, since I'm needing to work 2 part-time jobs on top of college to support my family.

    I've found that the best way to effectively combat anxiety was through self-improvement, my method of self-improvement was exercise. There are many ways in which you can find something to distract yourself with, for your betterment that is, all it takes is branching out and trying new things. It can be anything. You mentioned something about making music, well, that sounds like a decent starting point. Set yourself some personal targets and goals, allow it to be your escape from the struggles of everyday life. Just keep this in mind; Rome wasn't built in a day. If you find something to distract yourself from your anxieties, and you aren't immediately seeing results, don't just quit and throw in the towel, stick at it for a while and give yourself time to decide if it's what you need/if it's really your thing. If not, try something else, it'll find you eventually.

    As for the job-hunting, well, the common philosophy is that if you're passionate enough, you can work in anything. Passion for something is what strives you to learn more, passion is what shows employers that you're willing to bring something new to the table. You are completely justified in being nervous about this, it's a pretty big step from what you've known as a student. But, here's the thing; the ability to demonstrate that passion is what makes the job-hunting easier, and makes the work-life that much more satisfying and engaging. So TL;DR, if you enjoy what you're studying, you'll have better luck finding a job in a relevant field. 

    Don't let these struggles get the better of you, buddy. 

     

    Two part time jobs while your go to school just to support your family? That sounds like a nightmare, dude. Of course it's not as bad for me but I still find the stress from time to time. For me, I've been pretty consistent through out my schooling with scoring highly on tests and overall on classes.

    Speaking about exercise, I've been thinking of the same thing but I wouldn't want to do a public gym or anything like that since I'm not into doing that kind of stuff. Yes, I'm very self-conscious but I think I can probably find a better alternative somewhere. Yes, I may be a bit overweight, but that is probably due to my god awful eating habits. If I lay off the sugar and carbs I could be pretty good.

    I do agree with that though, passion does help with everything in the end. I of currently struggle to find my passion but I still have it there, I'm just uncertain about it.

    1 hour ago, Phosphor270 said:

    I feel ya bud. After I graduated high school, I pretty much went all in for college studies. During that time, I gave up some of the things I enjoyed doing. The most stressful time was transferring to a university as a junior. Since my junior college didn't offer courses in my major, my schedule became crowded, with senior year being almost unbearable. So much so, that I decided against going to grad school (A decision I do not regret, actually). The late nights, long commute, and lack of means to release stress took a toll on my health. The strategy worked but at a cost.

    As far as jobs go, I would recommend making some contacts while you're still in college. Depending on your field, some companies that have a relationship with the school will usually stop by and want to interview students that are about to graduate.

    I guess long story short: find that balance with your studies and hobbies (including ponies). Hope this helps and good luck to ya! :)

    I've probably managed my time a bit better than most people in my school and others that I've known. I've had a bad time of managing myself sometimes but I usually get the work done to help me succeed. I actually studied for about 5 to 6 hours today just to get what I wanted to get done. Yes, it was somewhat miserable but I still had some actual fun learning new material. If you were curious, it was on different package managers for different Linux distributions.

    I probably should get some contacts too. I've never been one that is very sociable since I love keeping to myself most of the time. This includes shying away from most social media due to me being incredibly privacy conscious and not wanting my identity to be leaked out in any way.

    36 minutes ago, Jeric said:

    You are doing a fine job TaZe with the time you can allocate to MLPF. I can tell you that if you are learning what you are being taught, you will be just fine once college ends for you. Right now try your damndest to focus on the here and now. Also, you know my rule, if you need some time off, you got it. IRL is always more important. If I can do anything to make your time on staff a little easier, you know where to find me. :)

     

    I really appreciate it, Jeric, that you came to this blog and at least read through what I've had to say. It's not that I'm not enjoying staff at all, it's just the stress of worrying if I will fail someone someway. I don't plan on actually leaving anytime soon but I won't lie that I've had thoughts about it.

     

    1 hour ago, Once In A Blue Moon said:

    It was for me. Admittedly I found university rather challenging*, so when I started an office job doing straightforward admin work it did seem very straightforwards. Perhaps if I had managed to join a fast-paced graduate scheme I would have found it harder, but even after being promoted into a graduate role it's still nowhere near university-level. As to being unemployed, I'm a strong advocate of volunteering - it gives a sense of purpose and gives you some good material for job applications.

     

    Your call. Putting a little note up that things are a bit hectic might make you feel a bit better about it though? It does seem like you're beating yourself up over it, and you shouldn't.

     

    *turns out working extra hard to get into the best university you can get in to means that you need to work extra hard just to be average. 

    Are we talking about system admin stuff? I was actually pursuing that career path myself. I actually don't know how it's like, so having at least some sort of insight on it would be really helpful for me.

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  7. 13 hours ago, Tacodidra said:

    I understand how you're feeling... While I doubt this helps that much, I can say you're far from the only person with those worries! But as far as I've understood, you seem to be doing well with your studies and know a lot about your field – that means a lot already! :rarity:

    And while I wish you were more active, I understand you completely in that regard too. :kindness: It's better not to force yourself to come to the forums when you're not motivated! And about the interests... yeah, that's a very familiar feeling to me too. Not here on the forums, as pretty much everyone here likes ponies and a few of my friends share my other interests too, but elsewhere... :derp:

    With me, I've been having feelings of leaving upright and just focus all my time other stuff. There is a reason that I'm not doing that and that is because I like people here too much to do that at all. I originally came here just because I wanted to be with people who had a like mind interest in ponies as I do. Sure, my interests have drifted off elsewhere slightly but not completely away from ponies!

    13 hours ago, Nightmare Rechie said:

    Well, considering the fact that I am 16, I am not in such a position to give you personal advice regarding career paths. Hell, I am attempting to dip my toe into the workforce as well... to minute success so far, predictably. Just remember one thing: being anxious is completely reasonable in this situation; we as humans are hard-wired to dislike change... so when drastic changes are afoot, we tend to get a bit restless. I only ask you to not let it hold you back: the first few steps may be wretched... but that is the only way forward.

    In regard to MLPF however.. well, I have but one thing to say: join the club. I have become marginally less active for similar reasons: miscellaneous hobbies, job searching, and not to mention, the overall desolate atmosphere of the modern Forums. Call it a harsh critique, but it is quite clear to me that many members are losing steam, and/or becoming incredibly bored of the Forums. I certainly meet these criteria, so I am sure many others do as well. To be truthful, the only true reason I log in any longer is due to nostalgia, and a few other members which I would like to keep in contact with... and I have relatively little going on as of now, so there is that as well. Should I find a remedy for all of these issues, however... I may decide to permanently depart.

    Either way, take all of the time you need: I of all people know that clinging on to something you no longer love will slowly deteriorate your sanity... and make you hate the aforementioned thing with undying rage and bitterness. Besides, you clearly seem to have your hands full... so do us all a favor, and tend to your real life. Your prospects are more vivid than they may seem, my friend: if it takes you removing yourself from the Forums to realize them... so it shall be done. :darling: May fortune smile upon you, and may you have a lovely night!

    For me, I think I just worry too much. If I do apply myself and don't be a lazy piece of shit like I am being right now, I think I actually make it to where I want to be in life. True, I may have motivation problems but I think for me it's that I need to be pushed in the right direction a bit more. If I have the drive to do something, I know I can do it!

    Yeah bud, I remember when you were the most active and were winning every day left and right. I've come to realize after all this time that winning days and farming brohoofs means jack shit. Oh sure, I have over 15k brohoofs, but what does that show to me as a person? That I am popular or was once popular? People who farm follows or brohoofs just need to sit back and rethink their priorities because in the end it means nothing.

    But yes, don't worry about me too much. I know what I need to do, it's just that my anxiety takes over my ability to reason sometimes.

    11 hours ago, Jedishy said:

    There is a lot I can say on this one. First you need a way to get out of your own head. Worry only leads to self-sabotage. So find a way to center yourself and step back from your concerns. It could be meditation, mindfulness exercises, zoning out to music, whatever shuts down the thinking part of your brain and lets you just BE for a bit. Further, you need to stop beating on yourself for worrying or not being where you should be. We are never perfect being so take the time to accept yourself as you are right now while planning to improve as you go along.  This covers ( lightly ) the mental aspect. 

    As for work you are worried about the great what if. What if your fears of what if are wrong? What if it all goes great? Does contemplating on either really help? What can you do NOW to help you ensure that your concerns are not as likely to come to pass? Learn to write a good resume and interview well. Your college should have resources to help you with that. Learn about leaders in your degree field and keep a file of your top picks so you can know what their companies, institutions, etc are like. Knowing about a jobs culture and history before walking in is a great way to blow the interview out of the water. 

    Now, time management aah my old foe. Heck Im still not great but let me share something with you. 90% of it is just doing whatever it is you need to do and then moving to the next thing. IE just do or do not, there is no try. Now what I am about to tell you is not to make you feel bad but to show you that even someone who sucks at deadlines can make it by ok. At one point I was running a religious group, going to college for a legal degree, working, training 2 apprentices, and coming here. I did it by setting days and blocks of time in a day for each thing. Once you factor in sleep and set aside x hours for work, x hours for study, x hours for forum time etc it all sort of falls into place. The final key is do not be rigid and do not get upset if you fail to keep to the schedule. Each day is a new change to do a little better one day at a time. ;)

    If you ever need an ear let me know and know that you can do it. Just one foot forward at a time and you will do great. BTW I love metal myself so you are not as alone there as ya think. :ticking:

    MTFBWY

    Jedishy. 

    For your first point for me it has almost always been music. I have a problem with something called "time anxiety". I have anxiety about how time passes. I guess for me I just need to not think about all too much and just tend to what I need to get done instead. y

    I have been told that I should allocate my time into a calendar of some sort, but I just feel this is a bit drastic in my case. I've never liked ththe concept of a calendar so I've always tried to shy away from it. Though, I could give it a try since it won't really hurt anything doing so.

    4 hours ago, Trix or Treat? said:

    adressing your 1st part, once you're there, you'll find that most of the times, work is more boring than it os tiring,(provided you're not talking of physical labor on a harbor or smt) and the things you're expected to know, are usually being taught to you on your first week there, so don't stress too much about it, if you apear sure of yourself it will be apreciated in an interview and most likely land you the job, the skills are proven by your diploma, they don't want to see that, but what kind of person you are.(they may still test your skill, but in pretty basic stuff)

    i can't really offer any advise on the second part i'm moving on

    as for your 3d part, you're only innactive compared to your previous activity, you're still there pretty much everyday as far as i can see, and that's in no way abandonment. but even if you do take a break, it's only natural, especially since you have both your studies and a job

    I guess for me, I just don't know exactly what to expect from work. Sure, it can be boring but like I stated above all I am concerned about is potentially looked at as an idiot of some sorts if I mess up at all. But hey, I've always had confidence issues so this is something I need to work on to get better at!

    41 minutes ago, Once In A Blue Moon said:

    On the subject of jobs, I certainly had a hard time finding a job* but when I actually got one I found it so much easier than university and far less wearing than being unemployed. At least in my experience, how good you are at a job often depends on how much you apply yourself to it; if you want to do a good job, that does show. Then it's just a case of keeping a record of all the times you went out of your way to do a good job as material for future applications and interviews.

    Regarding burnout, it sounds like you're nearly across the line anyway - if you can try and schedule the work you need to do as well as rewards for doing the work then perhaps that will be enough to make it? That said, if the feeling persists for a longer period of time, or completely pervades your life^, then it might be worth seeing a doctor - there's still a lot of stigma about it, but mental illnesses are real and can have a substantial detrimental effect on your wellbeing. I wouldn't jump to that conclusion especially quickly; as someone who is prone to worrying I get those feelings from time to time - that's quite normal, but it might be worth keeping in mind if the feelings persist.

    As to MLPForums, is there a particular reason you feel the need to spend at least a given amount of time on here? I don't do a huge amount here, but I keep an eye on it and interact as and when something catches my interest, but if I don't have time then I won't even visit. You're clearly a busy person, and your education comes first; no-one should blame you for that (perhaps pop something in your signature for the next couple of months, or leave a status update.)

     

    At risk of sounding excessively upbeat and optimistic, keep putting in effort and you'll end up somewhere"".  Best of luck.

     

    *although that's mostly being bad at job applications; it turns out that hand-crafting each job application with background research and a diligent attention to detail doesn't work as well as throwing out twenty generic applications and seeing what sticks.

    ^so you can't be bothered to do things that you like, or to take care of yourself or so on.

    ""maybe not where you expected to be (I'm certainly not), but that's something that can be worked over a longer period of time.

    Is it really much easier than university? I would like to hope so. I've been drained of my sanity somewhat because of my schooling. But it is true that I wouldn't want to be unemployed at all. It's draining doing nothing with your life and just sitting around all day not being productive.

    The thing with burnout, it's mostly because I am just lazy in a way. Yes, I have medication for anxiety but most of the time it does help that much. I have been thinking of leaving for many months and coming back when I'm all dandy again but there are too many people here that are important to me for me to just upright leave them.

     

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