Amanita

I... I just really want to cry right now... I hate the fricking hormones and the-the mood swings and-and I just really hate my life at the moment, Yeah I may be being a little over dramatic but I’m a teenager and I’m female and it really just.... hurts... and I’m frustrated and I normally cry when I’m frustrated and it’s just so frustrating to be crying for frustration and that just makes it worse and it just makes it a never ending tears of frustration cycle and the stress from school isn’t helping, I feel like I’m going to fail eighth grade, and next week is another piano lesson and my teacher is expecting me to play The Wedding March amazingly and I’m just so sick of the stupid wedding march, I can play it but everytime I go to lessons I just make the stupidest mistakes on the song like going to fast or messing something up that I had perfect at home... and it just.... frustrates me, you know? And I’m reading something for WV Studies for an assignment and the fricking teacher comes over and says what have you gotten done, I tell him nothing, and he tells me I need to stop making up excuses for not working like the “I’m reading it first” or other things, but they’re never excuses! And he lets other kids get away with it all the time! And I just feel so singled out and I tell him I can’t concentrate because of people in my group who continuously try to steal my stuff and then I’m the only one who gets in trouble for it, and when I told him that which was only once he goes “I’ve seen you when reading your comics and drawing, you can concentrate.” But those are things I enjoy doing, I don’t enjoy your class and I have ADHD and I get migraines and it’s just ugh...and I’m failing that class and.... *throws head onto the iPad and mumbles from underneath* And it doesn’t help that my crush is moving away and all this bullshit drama going on at school and that one of my best friends screeches at me everyday because she’s frustrated for one reason or another but I always try to make her smile as well as my other friends... but I guess I feel obligated to do that and.... oh great, just fucking great I’m crying now.