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I tried to put this in a video, but it didn't work. I have been thinking about this for a month now and just had my decision reaffirmed by a reality check with someone who cares for me. I have been having a rough time lately, as you've probably seen form my status updates, with my depression. I am having to reevaluate who I am, who I want to be, and who I am becoming. This is not as easy to do as it sounds. I am used to not having to do things myself and suddenly, now that I've graduated, I have to do many new things on my own. The problem? I never feel that I have time to properly address these problems on any day. I've thought about it for a month now and come to the conclusion that I have taken all of my time and devoted it to this website, among others. My daily routine consists of: wake up get on computer go to work (if applicable) go to bed Notice how there is no "eat lunch" or "take morning shower" in there. I didn't leave them out because they are unsaid routines. I left them out because they are literally not a part of my daily routine anymore. Yes. It is absolutely disgusting. I know. I am, by no means, blaming Feld0, the Forums, or the internet in general for this. I am the only one who had any say in whether this became this way or not. I can only blame myself, and only I can fix it. I need to figure out what is really a priority now in my life. And it isn't an MLP forum that I joined to sate my boredom in a computer class during my Junior year of high school. I am not leaving the forums for good, not right now anyways, but I am going to cut my time on here down from 6-12 hours a day, to around 1-2 hours in the evening. This means, for some of you, that I won't be seen or heard from anymore. I'm sorry, but I have to be selfish here. I love this website, but it can't be my life anymore. comment all your grief/hate on here. My decision is made. If I trusted you enough to add you on Skype, then you may contact me there. Please don't use Steam to contact me. Red

baby ginger on the left

Many times. The most recent one was from a dream of my older brother. He died 7 years ago. In the dream was really more of a memory. He and I were sitting in front of the TV, I was playing Zelda on our N64. The boss came and I got scared. So, being the amazing brother that he was, my older brother paused the game and reached to give me a hug. I then woke up.

music, nothing else can affect me the way music does. I listen to specific genres to calm me down from certain moods. Right now, I'm in pain form an injury, so I'm listening to this: http://youtu.be/dDRHx4cPgbE?t=43s

the world needs more gingers! <3

kinda surprised by the people that put my name on there.......that's interesting. I respect everyone, not just on this forum. Everyone everywhere, we are all people, we all get to have respect. Though i do want to give a shoutout to @ProjectRKA, @Motion Spark and @CrazyClay for putting up with my bullshit