I admit that I am absolutely my own worst enemy, I possess so many flaws that just limit me and I could overcome them if I put forth effort but I just can't I start trying and then its just entirely stress. That or I just have the life taken out of me by some random episode of just lethargy and depression. Distraction is necessary because if I get idle it just gets so much worse.
I admit I am a horrendously flawed individual who can talk way better on a screen than in a personal conversation with even those closest to me
I admit that for most of my life happiness is a scarce resource and it has no reason to be but because of me it is.
I admit that I can't process emotions right and it eats away at my heart and soul
I admit that I am slowly poisoning myself via my diet and the obscene amounts of chemicals I take in
I admit that I give input and try to help other because I think maybe it will help dispel what is a part of me and their happiness is something I wouldn't trade
And lastly I admit that I really don't know why I bother posting this here, I guess to empathize with others who have similar problems or those who have wisdom.