Here No Longer

It's interesting and simultaneously irritating to think about just how much more toxic the Internet, online games, etc. have become since, as late as 2017. Before 2017, I had relatively few incidents with toxic people that absolutely p!$$ed me off. But since... F***... It's almost like the internet is devolving into your average YouTube comments section.  It's gotten so bad that I've had to stop playing games simply because people are just so unbearably toxic that they pretty much cause me to have a f***ing mental breakdown , and at times that means abusing my computer (one I had last night was pretty serious... It was apparently so violent that my BF yelled at me "WHAT THE F*** IS YOUR PROBLEM?")... 

I even notice it on here, and honestly, outside of the Debate Cesspool, I'd never ONCE had a conflict with ANYONE before 2016, and had one maybe two in 2016. But since 2017, I've been attacked countless times by even people on here (and this is a relatively NOT toxic community!), because apparently civility on the internet is dying a quick and brutal death. Even by people who I previously respected, now some of them are on my $#!+ list. Oh that list is still growing, by the way...

F*** I think if I told myself 4 years ago that I'd have to deal with this $#!+ almost constantly, past me would likely think I'm being paranoid. But I'm not. This is a serious issue with the Internet as a whole. Personal attacks before I stopped playing Paladins last night were pretty much on a WEEKLY basis at the BEST. I don't know how much not playing Paladins will reduce the frequency of the attacks against me for simply existing and deciding to play a game, post a comment, or reply to a thread, but hopefully it's something because at this rate I may totally lose my f***ing sanity before too long. I say: STOP THE TOX.