Polar Breeze

Hello once more everypony! Now... I will give warning now, and if this sounds... mean or rude... please let me know! I honestly, do not know if it does... so please, let me know so I can remove it!

I suppose to not beat around the bush or anything... but... I feel like I am running in circles now...

I mean, the whole welcoming was nice! Full of ponies wishing me luck for friends or.... just welcoming me to the forums! Do not get me wrong, it was nice and a boost!... But.... if they are going to wish me luck... I mean, why can't they actually be friends too? Do they not want to.... or maybe following somepony means they are a friend...?

Ugh.... I was always terrible at this whole friendship thing.... maybe it is why I always lose my friends or... well... just can never seem to get that many anymore! Again, this is not to be mean... I just feel like my impact here is very, very small. I have yet to go to the games, but there it feels like it would only invoke reactions... and not too much chatter over that kind of stuff, which is still nice and shows that they care!

So, I am just lost now.... kinda just staring at this website all day in hopes maybe I would get something.... I am just never the one to take charge or make that first talk happen, which I apologize if that is what I am supposed to do...

Maybe I just need guidance or something? Or.... I really just have to what follow what others have been saying... going to the games and... Possibly hoping maybe I can get one... chat out of it?