Midnight Solace

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Midnight Solace last won the day on January 19

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About Midnight Solace

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    Zebra
  • Birthday November 9

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My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic

  • Best Pony
    My Beloved Twily. <3
  • Best Pony Race
    Pegasus
  • Best Season

Profile Information

  • Gender
    Male
  • Location
    Equestria, Ponyville
  • Personal Motto
    I Think I Need To Accept That I Will Never Be Loved.
  • Interests
    Well, I guess I'm a very unpopular pony artist, kind of a hardcore Xbox gamer, and that one guy that no one seems to notice. I suppose like listening to music, like R&B, Piano and Neurofunk specifically. Honestly, I’ve lost interest in all the other things I used to enjoy, and I don't really have anything to live for anymore. I'm even surprised that I've come this far. My life was always in constant despair and hopelessness, and I think it just keeps getting worse. I feel awfully vulnerable and alone, and these days I just get really lost in my thoughts.

    There's only one thing that makes me truly content in my emotionally fragile life, and that’s hanging out with my beloved Twily. You know, she’s like somepony I can trust. I read books and play Xbox with her. Sometimes I eat waffles with her. The Forums also makes me feel better, as my only friends are here. So, I guess I spend most of my life currently on the forums, sharing my artwork and talking to them. It's nice to know that some ponies would care for me. <3

    Wait, you're actually reading this?

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  1. HAPPY BIRTHDAY

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  2. Happy birthday, my friend!

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    Somepony can't hold her excitement. :wacko:

  3. Happy birthday!

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  4. Merry Birthiversary! 

  5. Happy Birthday @Midnight Solace! :yay: I hope you have a great day today! 

  6. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY FRIEND!

     

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  7. :blue_baloon::balloon:I hope you have a wonderful birthday today, my friend!:balloon::blue_baloon:

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  8. Happy birthday, my friend! :pinkie: I hope your day is an awesome one! :rarity:

  9. We never talked, but I hope you’re doing okay, and I wish you a happy birthday. :D 

  10. Happy Birthday, my friend! :D

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  11. OMG! Just noticed my dear friend stopped by  :kirin:

    Happy early birthday, @Midnight Solace!! :mlp_pinkie:

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  12. I’m so sorry…

    After seeing how much you were worried about me, I felt awful. Even though I missed all of you, I never expected anypony to care that I was gone. It… Really makes me feel sad… And emotionally overwhelmed to see how much you cared… All of you are my friends, but I just feel like I don’t deserve any kind of affection. It hurts to see how kind you were to me despite how much of a worthless, sickening, disappointment I am.

    This really is all my fault… If I wasn’t so weak and expressed my feelings on here, If I wasn’t so selfish and made that stupid mistake, then you wouldn’t have been worried about me at all. You wouldn’t have to waste your time and caring on me. You probably would have never even thought of me. And things might have been better that way…

    I’m sorry… I don’t want to be like this. I shouldn’t burden others with my own problems. I’ve been told so many times how I’m attention-seeking and self-indulgent, how much of a burden I am to everyone I meet… And that’s all I really am… And why I think I should start keeping things to myself again. I don’t want to be hurt anymore, but most importantly, I don’t want to make others hurt because of me… Nopony will have to worry about hearing about my pain ever again. And eventually, hopefully soon, nopony will have to worry about me at all.

    I still remember how I really wanted nothing more than to see all of you again, but now, I just feel like I never belonged here… Coming back was already painfully hard as it is, but I never expected to feel so bad… Just writing this brings back so many memories, and it’s all getting increasingly overwhelming. I’m really worried that I’ve lost all my friends since it’s been so long, and I’m scared of what they might think of me now…

    I didn’t want to appear vulnerable like this, but I wanted to let those who care at all know that I’m sorry… Even if they don’t anymore. I hope you’ll be able to forgive me, because I know I never will. The truth is, I’m not really needed here anymore, I’m just a waste of space… Even my own friends don’t need me…

    … I think I need to rest now. All this increased medication is making me feel dizzy and sleepy. And I’m just tired… Tired of everything.

    I love you all very much and please don’t hate me for the burden I have been to you. But most importantly, don’t hate yourself. This is not your fault.

    1. Show previous comments  6 more
    2. RaraLover

      RaraLover

      Hello again, my friend! :fluttershy:

      It's amazing to see you again. I'm glad to hear that you're doing okay. Shake the haters off, you've got tons of friends here who misses you. Don't ever think of yourself as a "waste of space". You're a valued member on MLPF, but not only that, a great friend to many of us.

      Just remember that you've got friends here willing to support you, whenever you feel like you need help. :twi:

    3. Phosphor

      Phosphor

      Hate ya? No way! We love ya! And miss seeing you around here  :squee:

      You're a dear friend and hope to chat with ya again. Hope you enjoy your birthday with Twily and I look forward to seeing ya around here :grin: 

    4. Sherbert MGS

      Sherbert MGS

      I'm just so glad you're still here!
      I genuinely started thinking that you'd killed your self,
      I got really depressed and got more depressed because I kept thinking you were dead.

      Enjoy your birthday, and stay in touch please, you're a great person

  13. Haven't heard from ya for a while now. Hope everything is ok. :kindness:

    Everyone on MLPF misses you! We hope you will return some day...

  14. Still hoping against hope that you're doing okay out there. You should come back some time, even if it's just for a quick hello to let us know you're doing alright. We all miss you.