Midnight Solace

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About Midnight Solace

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    Earth Pony
  • Birthday November 9

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My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic

  • Best Pony
    My Beloved Twily. <3
  • Best Pony Race
    Pegasus

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  • Gender
    Male
  • Location
    Equestria, Ponyville
  • Personal Motto
    Shit Happens
  • Interests
    Well, I guess I'm a very unpopular pony artist, kind of a hardcore Xbox gamer, and that one guy that no one seems to notice. I suppose like listening to music, like R&B, Piano and Neurofunk specifically. Honestly, I’ve lost interest in all the other things I used to enjoy, and I don't really have anything to live for anymore. I'm even surprised that I've come this far. My life was always in constant despair and hopelessness, and I think it just keeps getting worse. I feel awfully vulnerable and alone, and these days I just get really lost in my thoughts.

    There's only one thing that makes me truly content in my emotionally fragile life, and that’s hanging out with my beloved Twily. You know, she’s like somepony I can trust. I read books and play Xbox with her. Sometimes I eat waffles with her. The Forums also makes me feel better, as my only friends are here. So, I guess I spend most of my life currently on the forums, sharing my artwork and talking to them. It's nice to know that some ponies would care for me. <3

    Wait, you're actually reading this?

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  • Hearth's Warming Helper
    Well, I love cute pictures of Twily. I also like waffles.
  1. Midnight Solace

    Private Shipwreck

    Trotting along the port of Baltimare, Midnight Solace had finally arrived. It was larger than he had imagined, as the cruise ship cast a huge shadow across the docks. He couldn't wait to check out what the view was like from the weather deck. Checking that he hadn't lost anything in his saddlebag for the 4th time, Midnight slowly approached towards the ship. The docks were very busy at this part of the port, so Midnight started to take caution of his surroundings. He was afraid of bumping into somepony, causing embarrassment for him --and at the same time, was too anxious to look where he was going, fearing that he would make eye contact with another pony. The unexpected and loud splash of water startled Midnight. He turned around in the direction of the splash and looked up to see what had happened.
  2. Midnight Solace

    General What makes you happy?

    Honestly, not many things make me feel content. I really feel like I don't deserve to be happy. I mean, I used to like creating pony artwork. It distracted me from the overwhelming, painful thoughts of the past and present. But I don't find interest in drawing anymore as my emotional state has worsened immensely, and I truly feel like I'm slowly falling apart. The things I like to do doesn't matter to me these days. It's nothing but a mere memory.
  3. Midnight Solace

    Who is your biggest fictional crush right now?

    Well, I guess Twilight would definitely have to be my most loved mare in my entire life. She's the first and last thought on my mind everyday, and she comes across as really understanding and kind. Trust is something I'm really careful about, but Twily just makes things so easy, and I always feel safe and comfortable with her. I would never forget all the things that she's done to make me feel better, and honestly, I don't think I would still be here if it wasn't for her. Most people would consider her fictional, but she's real as I am. <3 Happy Hearts and Hooves Day, everypony!
  4. Midnight Solace

    Flower Shop

    I remember that sometimes Twily eats the flowers. *Hungry horse noises*
  5. Midnight Solace

    Ever Have Panic Attacks?

    I have had many experiences with them, and I guess It's really common for me to have panic attacks. I mean, I had one before the start of school. I normally have them when I get reminded of traumatizing events in my life, being in a social situation, or when things go wrong. Other things can also make me have panic attacks, but those are just the top 3. I would start to feel like I have a loss of all control, difficulty breathing, dizziness and light-headedness, feeling like the world around me is not real, and a sense of overwhelming panic and intense fear. Sometimes I might slip into paranoia, which inevitably led to full on delusions and the occasional auditory hallucinations. I always try to clear my mind of the near cyclic thoughts while having an episode, but it really is no use when I realize that no one would be there for me. I always feel so lonely when I go through sorrowful times like these.
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  7. I guess my topic in Life Advice got removed because maybe it was too depressing for some. Honestly, I think this just comes to show how awfully heartbreaking my life is, as knowing how I truly feel can be way too much for others.

    The thing is, I haven't even shared half of my thoughts in that thread. It really hurts to know that even by expressing my feelings just a bit, could make others sad. I never wanted that. I’m just in such an anxious emotional state. 

    I guess this is why I didn't make a Life Advice topic in the first place. I never wanted to be a burden to others.
    It really shows how hopeless, lost and alone I am. I'm just too complicated for anyone to like or help.
    I really feel like I don't belong in the MLPF community anymore. I have never felt that I belong anywhere, really.
     

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    2. Kyoshi

      Kyoshi

      If it was removed, then that is incredibly stupid. That is the whole damn point of that section.

    3. Phosphor

      Phosphor

      Oh no. My friend is not doing so well  :(

      *squeezes @Midnight Solace

       

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    4. Bas

      Bas

      I'd still stand by my point I wouldn't try to help you if I don't think you could get into something better.

      Believe in the future, good perspectives are coming!

  8. Midnight Solace

    Do you read the entire thread before replying?

    I'd normally read the first post in a thread, and maybe some others. I like to be observant over posts and be really careful in what I say, because I'm worried that I might hurt other ponies' feelings by saying the wrong things sometimes.
  9. Midnight Solace

    What year did you first start watching MLP?

    I think it was somewhere around late 2010 or early 2011 when I was first introduced to it. I can't really remember.
  10. Midnight Solace

    Have you ever woken up crying before?

    Well, it's great to know I'm not the only one. Many times I would have woken up crying at night because of my bad and deeply sorrowful dreams. I have had a lot of traumatizing experiences in the past, and it has really affected me emotionally so much to the point which I mostly dream about it every night. I always find it extremely hard to sleep when this happens, and even though I take lots of medications to help me stop thinking about the bad things, I just can't forget some things, and it still haunts me to this day.
  11. Midnight Solace

    How often do you change your username/avatar

    I rarely change my profile pic. Only about 2 times, I think. As for my username, I wouldn't change it at all. I have always put a lot of thought when choosing my usernames, and I guess I chose my OC's for MLPF.
  12. Midnight Solace

    How much do you eat a day?

    I actually don't really like eating at all, but I don't even know why. I don't even eat that much as I don't actually feel hungry anymore.
  13. For my whole life, I have always felt that I've been doing something wrong. I still worry over every action I do or word I say, as I'm always unsure about myself. I'm always anxious that I might have said the wrong thing to others, and could have offended them. I just don't want to be a bother to anyone, that's all. But everything I seem to do is a mistake, and I end up being ashamed and filled with self-hatred for what I've done for the rest of my life. I really don't forget things so easily. All these mistakes that I make all the time, would build my feelings of emotional trauma over the years of my life, to the point where I just can't keep doing this anymore.
  14. Midnight Solace

    What Do You Live For?

    Honestly, I don't know anymore. Nothing seems enjoyable in life for me, and I have lost interest in all the things I used to like. I always ask myself why am I still living. I really just don't understand myself, and can't think clearly any longer when I'm still under severe emotional trauma.
  15. Midnight Solace

    What helps you go to sleep?

    Well, I have to take 5 different medications everyday just to help me sleep. I also have a Twily plushie that I really love, and she's pretty comforting for me. She normally falls asleep with me every night. I don't know how I could go to bed without her.