Early Sunsets

After having a fursuit I made be delivered to a customer's house and being able to watch a video of them unboxing it, I think I can fully understand why Rarity does what she does in MLP. Seeing somebody squeal in happiness from wearing something you made for the first time is an unforgettable feeling, one that I'm going to keep chasing after. It's kind of like going to your first convention or concert. Once you get a taste, it's the only thing you'll ever want to feel. That's about the only thing strong enough to motivate even a slug like me.

I've been struggling with not knowing what I'm supposed to do for months now, and there have been times where I almost hit rock bottom again. Now it's like a massive weight was lifted from my shoulders and I suddenly discovered what I'm meant to do. It's probably gonna be a year or so before I gain any real traction, but all I know is I'm not petrified of the future anymore. That difficult first big project and sale, the hardest part of a journey like this, that lasted nearly three whole months from start to finish, is finally over. I'm ready for whatever comes next, and I'm not even scared. That's such a weird feeling. My whole life I've been petrified of the future, and it feels unnatural to be so calm about it.