Fasu

*hugs* I hope you feel better soon, my friend!

For the first, I'm not seeking attention, just venting out my regular struggles. I'm tired all the day which isn't curable by sleeping. My brains are like in thick fog - reasonable action and making decisions is really hard. And mind is filled mostly with negative thoughts about myself, imbued selfhatred. My body has become like a burden if not even a prison.

All I can consider myself is a failed worthless wreck, although I get it most likely isn't true. As one might notice my rambling is mostly about myself. I focus too much to myself, making it harder to act and/or participate to things and other people around me. This incapacity makes me hate myself even more.

Apologizes for late answer. I started usage of new antidepressant about three weeks ago. To be honest I haven't noticed actual impact to my well being. Neither any negative side effects haven't occurred at least yet. I'll see therapist at the beginning of next year and then there will possibility to start the psychotherapy.

Your offer is kind but at least now I don't feel like talking with anyone. Thank you though, Bas!