Fasu

Somehow, within a year without any particular person or reason, I've become more and more skeptical about god. To the point I'm now - strong atheist, that there is NO god, which is kind of ironical. For years I talked about myself as a christian which "I've been for most of my life" due the indoctrination of my family (which I don't see only as a bad thing). Retrospectively it might be I never was actually christian - halfly pretending for people around, halfly convincing for myself. 

@Splashee® Me neither - recently became a big fan of Hazbin Hotel and espicially Alastor. I would say, "off to support the animation team"! 

I have yet much to learn about historical persons but here are some I've read about and admire:

Stephen Hawking

Albert Einstein

Friedrich Niezche

H. P. Lovecraft

J. R. R, Tolkien

William Shakespeare

Nicolaus Kopernikus

Jesus (only to some degree what comes to he's teachings about humanity, since I'm not christian anymore)

I question it.

Rested, watched all sort of things related to Hazbin Hotel and packed for tomorrow since I'm going to make longest drive so far for my job. 

So, I'm obsessed with the song AND the music video.

I'm into electro swing, again. I propably have to point my finger to one particular radio-show-hosting demon  for sending me 20s vibes.

I'm fragment from the abyss. I have no self, at least so I feel. Just bunch of atoms which for neurotransmitters in the brain are trying to convince an illusion of unique individual with personality while, in fact, I'm just star dust in the eternal cycle of matter.

Alright, it sounds deep and dark, I know. But it doesn't scare me, rather brings some sort of comfort. 

Edit: typos.

"I have no soul - can't go heaven neither hell. Ahaha! I think I'm going insane, ahahahaa!" 

"If you have sex with same gender you'll burn in hell in afterlife." 

Don't try make me laugh...

Because I just "became" a fan of Hazbin Hotel.

Recently I became a big Twidash shipper. That's the otp! 

Some fanart of Sir Artorias from Dark Souls.

Excluding daily tasks I've spent hours today at the forum (which is exceptional). Also took long walk outside, it was pretty pleasant weather.

Theme of Ornstein and Smough. For the attempts yet to come to beat that couple will ensure this will be stuck in my head for long.

There was seriously going to be wall of text about what has going on my mind and plans about future. But at the moment my mind decided to lock itself (once again) and I can only hope  writing at least a short reply...

Overall tiredness have been less severe for three or four weeks now. After seeing doctor and psychiatrist I've doubled the size of medication and started taking ferritin as a dietary supplement. My future bothers me but I also have plans for it. What comes to job I've decided to return to work as electrician. Feels like I'm just a cover, a shell without interior, like I'm possessing no personality. That my life is just living and being but true me is somewhere else, locked away. 

Thanks for sharing! I might post own story here later.

Solar Fasu 

Older soundtrack of Delver.

"Hold your hammer, Sir Smough, I'm low with stamina!"

Piano cover of Ornstein's and Smough's theme from Dark Souls.  

Dark Souls has really caught me atm, espicially when I've managed to make great progress in it. 

1 hour ago, DivineBlur1000 said:

Believe it or not, I actually did have a dream about Princess Luna last night! She was just there, she hugged me and told me that everything would be okay... 

What a sweet dream!