I have a lot of issues maintaining relationships. Even my marriage has been through some bumps (well, mountains) because of it. But I am also extremely stubborn and prone to holding grudges. For some time my husband and I were seeing a marriage counselor and that lead to me talking to a psychiatrist that was able to shed some light on why I am the way I am. I'm used to proving myself to everyone and doing things the hard way because it builds character and makes an accomplishment feel genuine, and I'm addicted to that. Because of that I also have some unspoken expectations for the people I get to know. But I guess that makes me quite a shrew as well, and nobody can maintain the unknown expectations I hold for them. And once they fail those expectations, they're gone for good and I don't miss them. That's not a very good way to live though so I should try and change. It's just a very hard thing to do.