Muffinnz

Because there's no such thing as "normal". It's an illusion. A lie. It doesn't exist.
Be yourself. Be different. And be proud of it.
*Hugs* People all ready love you for who you are, why not you?

@Toshigami Equine I dont love myself. I wish everything was different. depression just doesnt go away, I tried to hide it when i joined these forums but it didnt work for long

@Muffinnz I'm not a professional and I'm not a doctor. I can't give you the advice or the help you need, but I know it's out there. Because you're not the only one who has ever gone through depression, and you're not the only one who has ever had these kind of thoughts. If reaching out on these forums or anywhere online doesn't help, if seeking out a professional therapist or a support group doesn't help, the maybe try seeing a doctor. There are anti-depressant pills you can take on a regular basis that can help clear up these feelings. Maybe something in your biology is making you feel this way.

I just pray that you don't give up on yourself, my friend. There's no such thing as a worthless life. All life has value, even yours. Even if you can't see it or don't want to believe it, I hope you can at least accept it as a fact. The sky is blue, gravity exists, the earth is round, and your life has value. All of these are facts, and the world would be a sadder place without you.

Please hang in there, friend. I know me and many others are rooting and praying for you.