Sky

Nothing's wrong with you. This emotional numbness--or detachment, if you will--is a common occurrence when it comes to death and dying. It's unlikely that you're "losing" your emotions; it's more likely that you're dissociating yourself from your mother to protect yourself.

 

Hope everything goes well for you and your mother, fellow brony.

Though I have a been like this for a long time now. I was only told about the operation four days ago. I don't think I have dissociated myself from my mother. I was told a while a go that I was going to die from arthritis and I didn't care then either. My grandfarther died two years ago and I was extremely close to him and I didn't care then and its not just death its other things. I just don't get sad anymore. I just feel empty.

ok I know that that's really tough, but if you take a look, all of these things are things that happens when you are in school, all these problems you have are related to school, so everything may look dark now, but once you'll get out of there things get different, because adults don't behave like idiots (these kids)

Not every single thing I said stays inside school. People still beat me up outside of school, People still like to laugh at me because my knee sometimes locks up so I need to limp and this is by random people in the street. Yesterday I almost got stabbed by a deadbeat weed addict that was threatening one of the people that bully me everyday, I might have saved that bullys life but that still hasn't stopped him from making my life difficult. And I know things will get better as days go by and I get out of school but I might not even reach that time and even if I do I'll have less than 10 years to live.

but why there are so many depressive kids on this forums, we are supposed to be a joyfull happy fandom

Sky, you know I really like you, but I do not understand why you are so depressed, ok, your condition is a HUGE reason. But what else, reading from your life advice threads, you seem to have a nice family and good RL friends, then why? If you wanna talk, I'm here ok?

I am depressed because people keep calling me names like "retard hands" and other such ignorant names. I get beaten up by people on a daily basis. People make up rumors about me (Last week someone made up a rumor of me saying I wished their mum had cancer. Now my mother is still recovering from bladder cancer, so I would never, ever do that. But now that rumor is out there people keep calling me a disgusting excuse for a human being and push my head into lockers.) I know that I'm not going to kill myself but I just wish I could ease the pain and I know that by having that slight want to kill myself makes me extremely selfish but In the end I guess I am a rather selfish person.