Pandora
-
Posts
2,095 -
Joined
Content Type
Profiles
Forums
Character Archive
Frequently Asked Questions
Equestrian Empire Character Archive
Golden Oaks Memorial Library
Pony Roleplay Characters
Events
Blogs
Status Updates posted by Pandora
-
i really want to revive an old oc of mine because she was best for things like RP but i'm also scared of her getting stolen from me more than she already was.
thoughts?
{Stolen as in all of her artworks../ people using her as if they own her} -
-
"greet the world with open arms"
-
Bahh~ december we'll be going to a ballet show again!
i can never get enough of those.
and maybe in october to halloween fright night but not sure yet.. we wait on an answer but ballet is set and paid!
Maybe also riverdance show from michael flatley but not sure yet.. depends!
-
anybody like sea/water aesthetic? -merfolk / pirate/ etcetera
-
is there anyone that plays mobile games?
If so.. which ones?
I'm looking for new ones.
I play two mobile games but both of them are very girly and they come with ofcourse, girly drama, jealousy of being higher ranking than them, jealousy of having a character more etc.. just continues... drama over nothing and i want away from it tbh -
I want to sleep but this brain won’t let me, I’m supposed to smile tomorrow; I don’t want to be up past 2 am — smn turn off my brain 💜
-
This song somehow always makes me think of my bestfriend
we've been friends for so long already.. I always get overwhelmed talking to them. <3
they did not ever leave my side!
{p.s. the original song is actually about loss {korean} this English version is happier.}
-
Spoiler{Art not by me, it was something creamy studio or so}
I just wanted to share something cute with you;
you are a very special friend to me, ghost.
when people avoided me on rp site, you were still there offering great comfort -
My apologies for the past 2 weeks having been in this deep slur of depression again; <3
I'm trying my hardest to get out of it;
Next week I have a week off so maybe then i'll feel better.
It was really going well but then you relapse/ fall back into the dark pit
Still going to keep smiling like always
the sun is out, i should enjoy it;
It's just the brain that malfunctions.
Sorry if i caused anyone to worry;
------+------
Now onto a positiver note,
How is your day going? What made you happy?
What would you recommend? etc -
"Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
Til' the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I'll think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new"
-+-
If only I could show my friend how much he means to me;
I wanna kick depressions bum with him.
He deserves better than what he's been through;
-+-
Just when i'm conquering my own anxiety & depression, you're slipping further away; <3
-
-
-
If i could say something to my bullies from my childhood that caused great trauma it would of been something along these lines
"How does it feel to know that I am capable of more than you will ever know, don't tell me i'm not good enough. You won't knock me down anymore."
this was probably the biggest trauma for me to deal with in my life; these people had created me to go into a state of depression when we just started with life; age 7; i went downhill but kept going, age 14 i was so emotionally damaged that i had to visit therapy after therapy, psychiatrist, etcetera. At home wasn't safe, it was hell. If it wasn't for my friend, James, coming into my life I wouldn't be here anymore. He was the one person who still believed in me and told me I could when no one else would.
I'm just glad that the past is.. the past. The past hurts but the future doesn't have to.
I'm still learning a lot, i still get disconnections and feelings of hurt that are related to the past and moments i can't shut off. I'm trying really hard to be better version of myself, trying is all i can do;
I do feel like i've learned a few things from @Princess Silky -
Considering to throw in a price change for my full colored art with bg.. but is it going to be too much?
2 characters + props + full detail, full background for only 45$ feels very low for me especially with the amount of time i'm spending on it;
-
-
@Kujamih i only do commissions as a side job so i don't necessarily need them. The only + is that it would give me the ability to commission other artists myself or get something extra for myself. I work a heavy factory job and i noticed that earning so little for something that takes up a lot of my time which i already don't have much is adding stress.. especially when people start wanting more and more into the commissions {props, backgrounds etcetera} not to mention that it depends on a person too, like some people have angel patience and let me take my time.. others don't have patience at all and start demanding me to finish it in rapid tempo which applies more pressure and stress and often results in drawings i'm not happy with myself.
I'd rather work on making it worth it than making it not worth it if i do and sometimes i feel like even smaller commissions like the little YCH's are more worth it, they take up less of my time but can earn me an equal amount of cash in less time. <3
i do plan setting up new rules etcetera too
Probably a +1 character is.. X amount of cash. -
Oh! Then a rule change it is! I second your decision on rule change, especially the required time limit.
If money isnt an issue to you and health is more important. You can request that you have more time to finish the job and have lesser pay or just apply a rule that you arent restricted by time etc.
Also lessening the work load to help you finish the job is also a good plan of yours. This can ease your work load plus you can get more comissions if you need it to be.
👍
-
-
How is everyone?
i'm glad this week is overrr <3 i've been spending most of my time working and sleeping and just away from activity online because of so tired-
*hugs*
I hope next week is a lot better for you, my friend!
Mine has been alright, I've been a little tired at times too, but the weekend should be great with more racing to watch (yeah, that's the case almost every weekend now). 
I'm trying to be a little more active here again, as the forums have in general been more lively recently. 
-
-
-
-
*awkward panpan noises intensify*
It feels okay to do a face reveal but also so awkward and nerveracking for me;
eeyup i did on stream and was asked twice if i knew but the thing is.. i knew!
I just have to get over my fears.. and over the thought process of not being allowed to be there because people told me i wasn't and that i should be dead, abomination, etc. {this is not online, i was told this irl as a child many many times}
-
how's your day today, everyone?
did something make you smile today? or are you feeling sad and need someone to talk to?- Show previous comments 4 more
-
-
-
@Pandora Sorry. The text was already big so I went along with it.
Not having an OC, I didn't know it was that bad... But I've seen stolen art and such before, I don't understand why some people do that. 
Chu are also Important's to me, As chu give me smiles when I down's <3
It helps that there are no riders I really dislike. 
