Flying Pencil

Hi there everypony, how are you doing today. I feel like I need to get this off my chest before it builds up. So I listed three things that hold me back

1. Criticism. Look, I know constructive criticism is nice and suppose to be supportive. But, for some reason. It makes feel insecure and unable to do the task right. So that often adds to my already clouded mind

2: My scatterbrained mind: If you don't know what the word "Scatterbrained" means. I'll tell you. According to google, scatterbrained means. "(Of a person) disorganized or lacking in concentration" or in simple terms. I lack concentration and jump into other projects without finishing the previous project. This is a problem that;s only growing, now that I'm animating. I try to create animation memes. But my mind switches over to another animation meme project because I thought the one I was working on was horrible. So yeah. 

3: I don't spend time with my family: Most of the time when my mom is home. I just stay in my room and watch videos or play video games. I feel like I don't spend much time with her. I try to arrange movie nights. But I just put them off as "I'll do it later". Now I don't even go outside with my friends since last week.

Any advice to tackle these issues would be nice. I feel like this is the only space I find comfort. 

Just got my second COVID-19 shot and I’m feeling fine for now. On July 22, I’ll be fully immune from COVID-19. No side effects for now

Probably going to be one of the last OC’s I’m going to make. This guys name is Jaxs and he is based on the mythical jackalope. Hope you like him. 

Made of pair of two oc’s based on two mythical creatures. Their names are Molly and Caleb. Molly is based on a Phoenix and has the ability of pyro-kineses ( fire powers ). While Caleb is based on a chimera, with demon wings and a snake tail I forgot. His powers is geo-kineses ( power of the earth/ground. Hope you like these two. 
 

Currently finished with the base forms of the animation. So now, I have to make the bodies themselves. 

Hi everypony, how are you doing today? I feel like I really need to get this off my chest. An issue I've been dealing with for far too long, one that I've been hiding. The topic, my depression and how it has gotten out of control. Note, if this topic is too sensitive to you. Please be careful of what's ahead. So firstly, some things to take note of.

I hide my depression, I have anger disorder, my dad died when I was very young, and I don’t take responsibility very well. So now, some backstory.

So firstly, my father died when I was a very young age. When I was asleep, I never got a chance to say goodbye. So now, I’m in private school because I was diagnosed with Intermittent Explosive Disorder. An anger disorder which sent me to private.

So, after moving from this private school to another one. This one where I met an old friend and had a love interest. Note that my anger outbursts were still lingering and I often got into confrontations with other students. Then the pandemic happened and September rolled over. And I’m kicked out of the lovely school, lost my old friend and never confessed my love. 

So then my anger blinded me to thinking it was the school's fault and not mine. Another issue I have, not taking responsibility. So after finding a new school and moving into the school physically during the beginning of 2021. So, this school actually helped with my anger outbursts. And whenever I feel angry, it usually disappears in a few minutes. 

Of course there are exceptions, such as my extreme competitiveness. But that’s beside the point. So after I felt calm, the guilt of me being expelled started building up. And I felt down and gloomy, but I never addressed the issue to anyone except my therapist and eventually my mom. I eventually started hiding these feelings behind a mask of happiness. 

Not healthy, I started to cry more and wished my dad was here. I thought my life was at an all time low. I do feel a little bit now, but today. I was trying to learn to ride my new bicycle and failed to learn it. I did make some progress, but the thought of me failing clouded my mind. It made me think of myself as a “failure” or “worthless”. So after a small outburst, I went to my room and cried silently to myself. 

Now, I already talked to my mom and my therapist about this. I take medication for this and try to find good coping mechanisms to control my anger and depression. 

And that’s all. I hope you all understand the personal issues I’ve been dealing with. Please don’t judge me as that only hurts me more. Have a nice day/night, whenever you're reading this post. 

Made the third faction OC I made is base on the True Sons. I have nothing else to say. Hope you enjoy this OC and next will be the Black Tusk. 
 

Just created another OC out of one of the Division factions. This time, the Outcasts. This outcast is based off the Assault class and is a dog. Because in my eyes, the Outcasts are like rabid dogs. I also put a picture of what an outcast looks like for comparison. Hope you like him.

Made this drawing of an OC based on the Hyena faction from the Division 2. Mostly based on a Hyena Sniper. IDK what her name should be. Hope you like her. Probably make an OC for the Outcasts next.