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It's hard to explain... My "problem" is that I can't see a reason why to upload in the first place. I'm not going to make money with it, it's just something I do for fun. There is nothing to gain, I guess. Why do you upload or share things? Maybe your answer helps me to understand those things better. And thank you!

That's fine, I like to talk a lot when it comes to common interests.

I like everyony in this show. But Derpy truly is special. She just does what she enjoys and doesn't have any bad intentions. She is just a pure soul, never wants to harm anypony. Often clumsy. Other ponies are sometimes weirded out, because she does something "unusual". Many of her traits remind me of myself, that's why I feel the biggest connection to her. And she is still an inspiration. It's okay to be weird, clumsy, cringey, shy - just be yourself and enjoy life the way you want it.

I'm going to be truthful, idk why I post my art online  It's probably because when I see these little ponies, it makes me feel so clam and happy, and when I draw them, I hope when people see my art they'll feel calmed and happy, knowing that even if everything is bad, at least there are cute little colorful ponies in the world, meaning not everything is bad 

And even though I understand that you don't think there's anything to gain from it, because a drawing can really effect a person, it can just be for 5 minutes after they've seen it and they remember it because the like it, or it could be years later when they think back to memory but also remember seeing your art (maybe when they were in a hard time)

So yes, you might not gain anything material, but you've created memories in other peoples minds, and isn't that everything? 

But if you're still unsure about doing it, I'd love to see it in private messages because it'll certainly make me happy, you're very sweet *boop* 

It's lovely that you connect with derpy 

How would you describe yourself? and whats your big dream in life? 

Wow. That's a wonderful way to see it. The ponies make me happy, too. Even when I have a day where I feel empty or not so well, just watching one, two episodes or looking at the art, makes me happy again.

It's not possible to send images via private messages, I was looking into this before.

Describing myself... Peaceful, honest, quiet, introverted, somewhat shy, slow thinker, serious, embarassed to show (strong) emotions or making jokes. And I'm most of the time lost in my own thoughts and because of this, I do a lot of silly things. I'm also very open-minded, there is probably nothing I would judge. Unless it's about violence or hate of course.

What about you? One of your traits, I'm sure, is curiousness.

I don't actually have dreams anymore. Already did everything I wanted to do. But I consider this a good thing, it means no stress or pressure anymore. The last dream I had was to not be alone anymore. But since I'm here and more active in general, I didn't feel lonely anymore. I tried to upload art before, but I learned that I couldn't find friends this way. Those expectations made me feel sad. As long as I keep things to myself, it will not make me feel sad or disappointed. Those things are passive. But to find friends I have to be active myself! As things are now, I think it's perfect. Just enjoying what is, no more changes.

What are your dreams? How old are you by the way?