Throwawayaccount2022

Hi, I created this throwaway account, because I need help with something, but apparently you have to post at least 5 posts until you can access the "Life Advice" cathegory, so her I am. So, I´m from Czechia. It´s a fine place, but nothing genuinely that great (we have good beer tho). I can almost call myself a "grownup", at least by age, not really by behavior. I study highschool and I´m stuck in this weird phase of my life, when I don´t know what I want to do with myself. I like playing games, especially Zelda, Mario and other games from Nintendo. I collect gaming console, but I´m not any hardcore collector by any mean, I just want to collect all the major ones. I also love music. Any music really. My playlist consists of game soundtracks, normal songs, not so normal songs, sometimes even classical music, so I think I´m able to say, that I listen to pretty much anything. And I also love (obviously) My Little Pony. I´ve been watching it for over a year now and I still haven´t finished it (stuck in the final season, I don´t want it to end). I haven´t created any significant pony stuff yet, but I learn drawing ponies and I plan drawing comics. And I think that´s all. This looks like a nice place, so maybe I´ll stay here.

Hello, I'm sorry if this question is inappropriate, but I need help and this is probably the best place to ask. I'm attracted to pony NSFW and I hate myself for it. I started watching it sometime this summer and was really into it. But then I told to myself, that I don't want to be like this, so I started to heavily restrict it until 2 weeks ago when I finally completely stopped. I'm able to live without it, I'm definitely not addicted, but I can't get it out off my head and I always have the tendency to start watching it again. I don't want to be like this. I don't want to belong to the weird side of the fandom, but I have need to watch it, and I can't find any substitude for it. Why am I like this? What's wrong with me?