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  1. Ganaram Inukshuk
    (This blog has been translated from AAAAAAAA to English.)
     
    So I went to Youtube to look for the links to some old videos I posted a year ago to reply to a bunch of derps about how the Forums have been hacked.
     
    And I saw this:
     
     
     
     
    My videos, all 26 of them, have been nominated by Youtube for their contest for being the best video on Youtube...
     
    I honestly don't know what to say... Except this:
     
    I'm not one for making videos at all, and even if I did, it's either just demonstrations for my friends and for other fellow players. I did not have any intention to be a full-fledged Youtuber, or even a Youtube Partner; Not all my vids are even public. I just post videos because some things were either a spur-of-the-moment thing, or I just wanted to show a few friends something interesting...
     
    Thank you, Youtube, for giving me such a grand opportunity.
  3. Ganaram Inukshuk
    You know, when Summer began for me, I felt like it would be the perfect opportunity for me to try writing once again.
     
    But apparently, it's turning out terrible for me, in fact it already has. The two biggest blockades are finding a serious proofreader to, well, proofread, and figuring out whether my style is even acceptable. Turns out, not even the Proofreading Group wants to take me seriously, and not even my own writing style is acceptable.
     
    Ever since I stopped drawing, I've been left with nothing to fill in the gap, except for writing, something that had always been a weakness to me that I thought I'd be able to sharpen.
     
    I tried my hand at writing once before, but it backfired horrifically. I literally made myself sick over it all. That was last year. So far, this year is just an extension of last year's failure.
     
    And even the year before that, I tried writing and it failed. Only one person ever agreed to review my story, and I gave up on it due to low feedback; A good number of people agreed to review my story and none of them, except for one, ever did.
     
    This is a mismashed feeling of betrayal, depression, desperation, isolation, and anger.
     
    I really really really really really really wanna write, but if I can't find someone to help me out, what am I to do? I'm pretty sure Fimfiction won't even want to accept my writing style, and yeah, I've tried TWICE with the the Forums' Proofreading Group.
     
    As much feedback I already get from the friends whom I send these stories to, it's not enough until I get a professional reviewer to give a very thorough review. That's what I've been longing for for so long. If it's really too much to ask for, then so be it.
     
    I'm running out of options, motivation, and time. I can't bear to ask my colleagues over at my other home sites, since I'm already at work for them, and deviantART is pretty much a no-zone for me. My Summer Break ends in the middle of August, and by then, I won't be able to write anything... At all. This'll be my last chance at writing for a very long time.
     
    So what do I write? Anything that comes to mind: Romance, sadness, destruction, random comedy, anything of that sort. And it's all been piling up for years now.
     
    I've heard from places that MLPFiM needs more fiction writers, and I want to take on that task, but if no one's gonna acknowledge that, then what's the point?
     
    I've tried countless times to find a reviewer who can give a serious and thorough review, I've mentioned already, but it's clear that they're not there or that it's too big an order to fulfil.
     
    Anyways, I guess that's it. Either I find a reviewer, or I quit.
  4. Ganaram Inukshuk
    As I presume that 90% of you guys are typing on a keyboard that looks like this:
     

     
    Whereas instead, I type on a keyboard that looks like this:
     

     
    Ever since January, I have been on a crusade to change the way I type, and safe to say, I have succeeded with my ventures.
     
    I can now type as fast as I used to using the former when I still was using the latter keyboard.
     
    But what, you may ask, is this supposed blog to be? A public service announcement on the scourge of computing that is commonly known as the Qwerty Keyboard.
     
    "But that's what I type on all the time, so it's gotta be good. Why you gotta hate on keyboards?"
     
    That's the thing. The Qwerty keyboard was originally designed for typewriters so that jamming of the typewriter keys cannot happen. When the dawn of computers came about, it just stuck.
     
    In other words, Qwerty was designed to make you type slow, making typing inefficient.
     
    Historically, a person by the name of August Dvorak (No, we're not talking about the musician) created the most well-known alternative to the Qwerty: The Dvorak Keyboard.
     
    I'll direct you to a site that has more info on this, but this is where I'll be referencing some of my info. http://mkweb.bcgsc.ca/carpalx/?dvorak
     

     
    On the Dvorak keyboard, 70% of all typing is focused on the home row, which on a Qwerty, is the row of keys that reads ASDFGHJKL. How many words can you make with those letters? Only a few hundred. Whereas with Dvorak, which is AOEUIDHTNS, that number is in the thousands.
     
    What does that mean? Your fingers don't even need to travel that far to reach what's effectively the most commonly used letters in the entire English Language.
     
    There was a book that was written without using one particular letter: The letter E. Did you know that there are 12 E tiles in Scrabble? Wanna know why? Because that's the most used letter. Wanna know where the E is on the Qwerty? Next to the W and the R, right at the hard-to-reach top row. Where does that translate to the Dvorak? Right under your middle finger of your left hand.
     
    Dr. Dvorak designed his keyboard so that, as I stated, 70% of all typing is done on the home row, with 22% of the typing on the top row, and 8% on the bottom row, where all of the least-used letters in the English Alphabet are used at. Compared to the Qwerty, those numbers are in the neighbourhood of 32% on the home row, 52% on the top row, and 16% on the bottom row.
     
    There are some interesting notes about this as well, including the fact that Dvorak is so efficient, bad stuff like Carpal Tunnel and Repetitive Stress Injury can not only be mitigated, but eliminated and prevented. http://en.wikipedia...._Dvorak_layouts
     
    Oh, and the world's fastest typist used a Dvorak. That same person failed her typing class, because they used Qwerty.
     
    A more recent alternative, and this is my cup of joe, is the Colemak Keyboard. It's marginally better than Dvorak, but because I had such a hard time switching to Dvorak, I said to myself, "Screw it, I'm going to Colemak". And within several months, I can officially diagnose myself with ASDF Deficiency: I cannot type on a Qwerty anymore.
     
    There is a wiki devoted to the Colemak, as well as a download to switch from Qwerty to Colemak. There's also an interesting online app that compares which keyboard layout is best using only what you type into it. For example, I'll use this entire document in the end to see which layout is best.
     
    So what does that mean? ANY keyboard is better than Qwerty, but personally, I prefer Colemak. I'll explain why:
     
    I grew up, as with most of you, with using the Qwerty keyboard. As I progressed with my computer classes in high school (as with struggled how to type), I eventually learned how to type on what I now see as the worst keyboard ever. I've only heard small slivers of information about the Dvorak, but when I started my college courses in computer science, I heard the full dirt on Qwerty and Dvorak.
     
    That was January 2012, so you could say that doing away with Qwerty was my New Year's Resolution. It wasn't easy, but it took less time than putting up with Qwerty.
     
    The moment I heard the truth behind Qwerty, I immediately switched the layout of my keyboard to Dvorak, but after about a few months, I had to switch back. Through my research on Dvorak, I stumbled on a keyboard called the Colemak, made by a person with the uneventful name of Shai Coleman.
     
    There were a lot of ups and downs in my life between March and now, and those who know me well will know what I mean, but one of the biggest factors behind that was that I literally couldn't type. And the best part of all this: For my Microsoft Office class, I chose this to be my exact topic I wanted to talk about for my PowerPoint project, all because of one trivial fact about Qwerty.
     
    Someone once asked my why I would ever switch keyboards. I responded with the goal of efficiency. Some of you guys may know what I'm actually gawking about, and some of you guys are just boggled out of your heads and some of you guys -- HEY, COME BACK HERE!!! -- don't even wanna read this giant blurb of words.
     
    I'm gonna post a poll up top about this.
     
    So suppose you wanted to switch keyboards. What would I recommend? Colemak. Why? Because the position of half of the keys on a Colemak are unchanged between it and the Qwerty. No keys ever switch hands, except for P and E. It means if you wanna write "Pee", instead of using your left hand for E and your right hand for P, it's the other way around. All of the other keys on a Colemak don't even switch hands.
     
    Compared to Dvorak, only the A and M keys are unchanged. Then again, that's just my preference, and what I learnt with. If you're on a Dvorak and are OK with it, just stick with it. Once again, there are online resources on all three keyboards, and if I've actually persuaded you about what's what, then I've done my job right.
     
     
     
     
  5. Ganaram Inukshuk
    Like Lololicorn Twilicorn on the cobblestone or the return of Arylett on the cobblestone?
     
    Surprisingly with a lot of silence and oftentimes with a big delay and that often comes with a very small response.
     
    Lololicorn Twilicorn on the cobblestone? Ehh, but it's more wait-and-see.
     
    Return of Arylett on the cobblestone? That's where things get really tricky.
     
    Seriously, I should start using blogs as a more "publicised" relay for my thoughts. The GCT doesn't always cut it, and neither does the status updates and PMs.
     
    Now then. I took on Arylett's departure with the same set of emotions, except that I had entangled it with:
     

     
    Short-lived "Oh noes" and a means of re-communication that I had never used because...
     
    Because...
     
    F!cked up family and me almost getting arrested.
     
    Sorry Arylett, but I had never had the time to recommunicate with you. I still remember you...
     
    Since then I've enforced a zero-emotion rule upon myself. And:
     

     
    Actually, since then, I was called upon by others back at my other home site. I'll bet only three people will know about the NAM and probably would go OMGWTFBBQ when I say that I'm one of the NAM's devs.
     
    I'm one of the NAM's devs.
     
    Well, the release of the NAM was a big event, and I literally stayed up all night just to see how things were going along. For the record, I had a more indirect role, but you'll see one of the pieces I threw in.
     
    I guess that's it...? I guess.
  6. Ganaram Inukshuk
    This is more of an open letter to a few old friends of mine here:
     

     
    As opposed to lying in my bed and falling asleep as most normalites would, last night, I felt more inclined to lie down on the floor, with the monitor, keyboard, and mouse of my computer at my level, so that I could easily reach it.
     
    There was something eating away at my mind that I couldn't shake off and it's the idea that some parts of me, or rather, some notable people, are drifting away. Now if I find someone who has drifted away too far, especially explosively, I'll simply not acknowledge them ever again. Boom, gone. Blacklisted. Otherwise, I'll find some way to re-contact them.
     
    Now, I'm not one to complain about anything, but that's because if I tried to, I get beaten to a pulp, so I keep every single problem to myself, and ferment it into absolute nothingness. It's something I'm OK with because I force it to be.
     
    But I felt like I was being left out of something, social contact with some old friends here. I'm never one for starting a conversation so I try to act silly about it. It typically works and I end up stating stuff of myself in the end, but to not hear anything from someone I know is different.
     
    Alright, fine; I know, Real Life can hit and it can hit hard, but if it does so silently for someone, it worries me.
     
    I guess that's it.
     
    Over and out.
  7. Ganaram Inukshuk
    PLEASE READ AND RESPOND TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY HERE.
     
    If you wanna cut to the chase, just skip to the part that says "Skip to here if you wanna skip to this part". For ease of reading, everything else has been spoilered.
     
     
     
     
    Skip to here if you wanna skip to this part.
     
    I wanna Roleplay, but what kind of a Roleplayer will I look like if my ideals of communication and dialogue have fundamental/subtle/odd differences?
  8. Ganaram Inukshuk
    Instead of me having to write a massive block of text and falling asleep in the process becaise the computer I'm using is so damn slow, I'll instead post a summary of what happened to me over the last weekend:
     
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    A little life update with myself: A dispute with my brother and another one (that's now resolved) between my folks that nearly broke the family in two has left me using the weakest computer in the house (of which I left a brief description of back on ST; There's no way I can do anything on just 128MB RAM).
     
    The reason I'm saying this is that it would've left me out of commission for a LONG time (I'm talking being unable to log on at all because my computer money had to be spent on starting a new and fractured life) had things gone further south, when normally this kind of thing would leave me depressed and powerless for only a few days.
     
    And had things gone further south instead of looking up,... I don't wanna make things too sappy but I really would've started missing everything that's going on here (and this goes for much of my Internet life; I'm one of those guys who have an Internet life because their RL is so unstable).
     
    (Side note: I really don't like Qwerty keyboards. If you see a typo, you'll know why.) --> (Dlgk j;fkP L skauuo g;j'f ulnk Qwksfo nkob;asgd. Le o;i dkk a for;, o;i'uu nj;w who.)
     
    Fortunately, thingd are becoming better on me, and I should bk able to get an intermediaro computer by the end of the week. At best, I'll only be able to lurk and work on documentation until I get my real computer up and running.
     
    Here's to 2013, and I hope you guys have had a good Christmas and a fairly uneventful (and safe) Apocalypse. I'll see you when I get a half-decent computer (and I set it to Colemak instead of Qwerty).
     
    -----
     
    A few amendments to the above statement:
     
    - To the RPers in my RP, I still feel like I shouldn't be the leader, but I don't wanna have the RP die. I still need to know if you guys are still up for the RP (and I know many of you will say yes), and if we can do anything about reconciling the leadership position.
    - To anyone still concerned about me, yes, my family nearly fell apart this time, and yes, it was a divorce that nearly tore my family (and myself) up, and yes, things are looking better.
    - To those who still wanna know what happened, wait until Friday and PM me about it.
     
    And an amended closing statement:
     
    I know that things haven't turned out the way I had hoped for them to be, and I know I react violently to it, but if you ask me, that's how I react when there's a fight in the house. And my guess, it's the reason why I've been overreacting to everything here on the Forums.
     
    I really wanna be a better person now, and I'm hoping things will turn better for my family and I'm hoping it'll stay that way, but I'm overlooking the part that requires my action to it:
     
    I promise to be a better person, and I promise to be more stable when something happens. If I fail to uphold this promise, then I deserve to no longer be a part of this community. I want to start enjoying things again, not running away from them.
     
    Here's to 2013 being a better year for me, and for all of us as a whole.
  9. Ganaram Inukshuk
    Ganaram here, and it's about 04:30 about where I live, and with the weekend about 67% over, I can safely say that I pretty much had the worst weekend ever.
     
    Now of course, that is an absolute fallacy to say that I had the worst weekend ever, considering that the likelihood of someone else having an even worse weekend is almost certainly likely. Call it whatever you want; I'm gonna instead call it "not good".
     
    Now why is it that it's this way? Let's begin a month ago.
     
    No, let's not. Let's begin a week ago. I was effectively buried with a lot of secret projects that it all came crashing down on me.
     
    I honestly can't remember what happened a week ago; Something happened that stopped me from all of my writing projects and drawings, and then I just ragequit. To everyone I sent a PM to, you probably have a more vivid memory of what happened to me.
     
    It's probably the stress from college coupled with this stuff that threw my immune system out of commission.
     
    So what made my weekend terrible? Mostly the fact that I was sick. I mean, really sick; Sicker than I ever was since freshman year of high school. Yeah, I take my immune system for granted, and when a serious infection like this happens, boom. You're pretty much knocked out. I don't think I've been to a hospital for even a checkup, except for the times I decided to tag along with my dad to pick up something from the pharmacy. Or vaccinations.
     
    So why the damn have I decided to write a blog? Easy: To prove I'm still not dead. It's easy for me to "die" out of the forums; Out of all the art threads I've ever posted (which was only just three or four), the least amount of feedback was from one person, who has long since left for what I suspect are the same reasons that I ragequit.
     
    You know, I think the fact that I'm now sick as damn made me care less about the feedback I've ever gotten.
     
    There were a number of people I had to consult, whose names will be left anonymous. The general consensus out of most of the replies was this:
     
     
     
    "Take it easy", a very famous outro by renowned Minecraftian Direwolf20. Perhaps I really should do what he's been saying for about 300 episodes of Minecraft Let's Plays...
     
    However there's one reply that I will absolutely piledrive back into them (which I will refuse to quote). Do you honestly expect me to just jump back into the forums when my body is literally NOT ready?!! That's a death sentence right there. No, just no. I don't care if you're not gonna accept that as an answer; That's all you're getting.
     
    Can I talk about something else?
     
    OK, here's something else: If I hear about a problem that my friends have, I throw mine in the back. Arylett, Jadefire, Maarten, you're not gonna make it easy on me if I'm ever around you to actually observe your emotions.
     
    I can describe this phenomenon: My problems are not the centre of the universe, and there's always something more important than me. A billion rants on deviantART have reinforced this into me, but really, I'm just piledriving it back into them.
     
    OK, that's enough. Let's get into cancer.
     
    No, not the medical cancer, the other cancer: Western Astrology.
     
    Is it possible for one's personality to change permanently? I have enough firsthand experience now to say that it can happen.
     
    I'm supposed to be the one who should be the most sympathetic and emotional of all, but clearly that can't be if I can't...
     
    If I can't...
     
    If I can't let go of some things...
     
    OK, that's no good either and my bladder's bugging me.
     
    I don't where to go with this now; Perhaps I should leave it with this statement:
     
    "It's never possible for me to leave the Forums, but if I'm too emotionally or physically damaged, I can be effectively halted." If I am in this state (which, for the record, I am), don't expect anything from me, unless you're a trusted friend, then look in your PM inbox.
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