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Si. This I, woona. Don't really go by that anymore since I left the fandom, but yeah.
Sorry to hear about your job, dude. Have you been able to find any side gigs?
I think between the last time I was on here and now, I got engaged. I also had a job that made me horribly depressed and my boss made me paranoid so I just up and quit before having a new gig lined up. I spent 3 months unemployed last year and couldn't collect unemployment so that was nice. I had to cash out some retirement to make ends meet, haha! But I did have all the time in the world to made our old rent house spotless by the time we moved out of it so at least we got our deposit back.
Our dog also died right before I left that job. Probably a contributor to the depression. Was in a major funk for a while but we bought a home and I found work and things picked up.
I've also been seeing a therapist to help reconcile childhood traumas. I also finally came out to myself as a radical atheist. Then to my partner. My therapist is helping me work through it. I think my adoptive parents will write me out of their will if I told them, but I told my mom I'm sick of buying Christmas gifts and I don't want to give or get anything at all for Christmas and apparently that makes me greedy? Whatever the opposite of generous is. I tried to explain I have enough THINGS and what I want from my family is TIME and apparently that didn't click with her so I'll be talking about that with my therapist. My mom also knows I'm not going to church and asked if I can't buy gifts can I at least start going back. I said no. I'm pretty proud of myself for that. It made her awfully sad and I'm sad about it too, but I'm finally standing up for what I believe. So yay for steps forward I guess? I wad having an anxiety attack the entire phone call and almost came out of the closet. But she did say that if I wasn't having agnostic feelings towards church that it'd be as easy as going to Target. So maybe she's starting to suspect it. Idk.
Maybe one day I'll tell them. I'm kinda sick of being fake with my family just to be accepted.
So that's my TED talk lmao
Oh yeah and I'm also getting out of accounting. I'm studying IT certifications. I have accounting to fall back on and I'll keep my current job til something in IT comes along and I can jump ship and not just land in the water. That's exciting.