Guarentee you i was worse, just try striking a conversation and ask about them, dint talj about yourself unless questioned, just let it flow through you naturaly, believe me i know how hard it can be but until you do you'll hate yourself and thats the worst feeling you csn have
Dont do it anymore, get rid of them feelings, self hate is the worst kind if hate you will put yourself down more then anyone when there is absolutly nothing wrong with you, i've been there i know your feeling take it from me let them feelings go