Zygen

When I was depressed (well, more depressed) I used to be hesitant to get better. Depression had become a part of me and I was afraid to give it up. But such thoughts are distortions. Don't trust them. You'll be happier without it.

Have you seen a psychiatrist? They could help you get to the bottom of this whole thing. There's only so much we can do from the other side of a computer screen.

@Rudy, I guess, idk frankly. Its weird, but i almost like the pity and attention i get, so i feel like i'm just pushing it until people almost leave, then i feel better and go back again, i'm like some kind of pity leech or something. :/.

And no, partly because i haven't told my parents or anything, because if i told them they'd either freak out, or think its nothing. Plus after their divorce i really don't trust them as much.

And frankly idk how much i trust psychiatrists, i mean like they're basically paid to act like they care and talk to you, and i just dunno how i feel about that :/.