Zygen

@Becker, But the fact that the whole thing is supposedly normal just makes it seem like, it really shouldn't matter or be an issue, when others have legitimate issues plus "regular" teenage ones.

I guess I just find it hard to ask for help, or act like I have problems, when so many have it worse. Maybe I don't like asking for help or being thought of as weak, its hard to say.

@Becker, I've already had a good number of breakdowns and outbursts over the time I've been gone, so hopefully they'll atleast stay away for a while.

And as for the brilliance thing, your probably right in a way atleast, but even when I don't downright hate myself, its very hard for me to give myself credit, between not wanting to accidentally become overconfident, and because I feel as looking at things practically I don't see much greatness in myself.

@Becker, but being your own worst enemy is certainly true, especially for me, I probably cause most of my own problems, they're mostly in my head, besides the teenage regular stuff. Which I still don't feel almost qualifies as a problem. I mean others deal with problems in addition to that as i've mentioned. I've had a similar issue with how girls have to deal with all the same problems as me, but they have to deal with it as girls, which according to them is a million times h...