Kyoshi

@Kyoshi

As someone who is a senior in high school and that I am graduating in 2021, I am afraid as fuck of the future to be honest. I am prone to extreme procrastination and obsessing over a past I can't change no matter what. When even asked about what I want to do in the future, or even thinking about going to a college and what the fuck I will do with my life and how I'll go about doing so - it makes me extremely anxious. I am a person of many fears, hiding from that which I don't like while I try to show an emotionless face about it so that I appear strong.

Every life is extremely limited. Nothing lasts forever, so make it count. Do the best you can. See the things you want to see, do what you want, be happy, do what makes you happy and fuck those who hate on us for doing that - our life, not theirs. 

No need to apologize to me. But I will ask though, are we friends?

You already seem better off than me at least, so you can give yourself credit for that. My life overall isn't much. I get a disability check, I try to make that work for me and I live with my dad. In many ways, I still have a childlike view of the world. Like I said, me brain is...weird. Most days are me trying to enjoy my hobbies, occasionally trying to make a new signature for my DA for others to use. That's honestly my life in a nutshell now. 

My rambling is on point tonight in being confusing. As for your question, I suppose that's up to you. If someone else finds me worthy of friendship, I trust their judgement far more than my own.

@Kyoshi

I could request ideas for signatures though I'm not sure if you want to do requests for such things. I also don't know why but my mlpforum notifications are fucked and my following of people is messed up.

I still think of childlike things tbh, I myself when I was real young was considered to be on the 'spectrum' although I never had severe issues or anything with it and never got fully tested for it, my thought patterns are strange. I still have a stuttering problem although its much more manageable now than it was years ago. I couldn't speak until I was 3 and I had lots of issues growing up. 

While I may not be entirely out going irl, I have talked to thousands of people online, so I learn to read into people very well. Your writing / explanations aren't confusing. I like to consider you as a friend, if not someone to talk to and see about.