Living in anxiety, stress, lack of purpose, only to eventually die of either old age or disease, all while watching my family members die one by one before me. Life is fucking fantastic.
But it's all you have. I've learned to live, knowing everything you do has no point in the end. Unfortunately there's nothing much I can do to help you over the internet. Life is an endless loop of ups and downs, that no one can escape. You're just going to have to live with it.