I would love to actually be an active part of your streams more, but my connection is so bad that it's not even loading past the advertisements about 85% of the time... :/
I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I don't even feel much joy from the stream now, I don't feel much joy from anything, I just fucking hate myself so much, regardless of what others say. It keeps getting in the way of everything and I know that's my fault but I don't know anymore.