Kyoshi

@Nick: you like to think you are good at video games, but I know there is more to you than you realize. I should know this because I am taking ALS (Airmen Leadership School) and I am learning things about myself that I never knew I had. It can happen to the best of us and the worst of us. Just give it time. You will find a passion that you are good at and it will be your life calling. Talk around. I'm sure there are friends of yours that can point out your strengths. I don't kn...

@Stellar, In the end this is only making me feel even more worthless. You apparently have a calling. I don't. I know don't, and I know I never will. I live a simple, boring, and overall pointless life. That's all it has ever been and all it will be. I literally see it in no other way. I wish I could enjoy this shit but whatever. The way it sounds though, I NEED a calling. Some kind of thing that does make me worthwhile. Well, it won't happen. There is nothing about me worthwhile.

With that, I am going to sleep. I am growing increasingly tired and I am growing increasingly depressed, pissed off, and completely engulfed in self despise. I appreciate the concern that you all have, but it really isn't worth worrying over.